lost sister and father

[GingerHoney]

2 years ago I lost my dad to Covid/Pneumonia and I have had a hard time with it. I was very close to him and was struggling with how to deal with the loss of him. Then 1 year ago, my younger sister passed away in a car accident. Her and I were extremely close and did absolutely everything together our whole lives. We were 1 year and 1 week apart, a lot of people actually thought we were twins because of how close we were. We had our birthdays together, went to school together, joined the Navy and served our time together...she was my best friend in the world, my only true friend. I am completely lost without her and I feel like I am actually losing my mind. I can't seem to stop thinking about not having her anymore. I obsess over how I am alone and how we were supposed to grow old together and always have each other. I feel like I am not even a real person anymore, which doesn't even make sense. I feel like I am in a dream or alternate reality, kind of a haze. I have described it as feeling "half dead". She is a part of me and every memory or experience I have, she is a part of. Every thought or memory I have makes me think of her and it makes me upset so I have just been trying to distract myself and avoid dealing with the losses in my life. I don't think anybody in my life will understand. I just need support from people who might know how I feel.

[chloe40 Administrator]

Hello GingerHoney

Welcome to our friendly forum.

I'm so sorry to read of the loss of your father and sister under horrible circumstances.

You were clearly so close to your sister and had a very special bond {{{hugs}}}

It's still very early days for you and you're feeling so raw inside.

The feelings of 'not be there' is normal for a time, many of us experience this, I personally believe it's the shock that causes this, the emotions of grief are so unpredictable, tears come from nowhere, anger rears it's head and so much more, we feel up and down with each day.

You will need time and support and we're here for you but please don't be afraid to have a chat with your doctor, who may want to refer you counselling, it certainly helps.

In the meantime, please know some is always around to reply to your messages and post as often as you want, talking really does help.

Sending love and support

Chloe

[Caza]

I hear you & feel for you. As Chloe says it’s early days, don’t expect too much of yourself. Look after yourself.

My sister & I were extremely close & suddenly she was gone. She had a massive stroke no warning at all. She was very fit & healthy. Gone way too soon. It’s hard. I miss her terribly.

For me I need lots of exercise routine & to keep busy.

[Vasiliki99]

That's sad it's sad because they are in the other world and they are contactable by thinking of writing to them it's not easy though bets wishes