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Healing again

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So again it seems it’s time to remember him, my long lost brother although right now I feel close to him like he is at my side and in my heart. But I wonder who he is now and darkness gets mixed in along with the care I have for him and my healing. He killed himself which was a step further than I had anticipated. I knew he was sick and I tried to get him help but I failed and I realize that I probably shouldn’t blame myself but I just keep wishing I could have helped him because before he took his life I saw a vision of him as a Pegasus which sonn m ehow I knew was him going off to heaven so I tried my best to help him to figure out what to do for him but I failed him. My parents failed and his friends failed. Or maybe we simply did our best with what we had and he did not have anything left to keep himself going. He was in so much pain. Since then I’ve experienced times in which I’ve wanted to die but I held on when I saw my kids faces in my mind. Love faith and hope keeps me. I wish it would have kept my brother. Love to my brother ❤️ and to all of you who have lost your loves.

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newbie1956

Dear Starr,

I lost my sister on Oct. 3,2020, so i do relate.

Many have died since the beginning & GOD has the ability to restore life to each one of them. Until then, our loved ones are "resting". Yes, RIP.

I'm happy that my dear, sweet sister is "sleeping". I miss her very much, but wouldn't "wake" her if i could. It's all in GOD's capable Hands.

Certainly, Greek gods have no power.

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Ddorne

Heartbreak.so sorry.

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chloe40Administrator

Hello Starrlight Your words tug at my heart,

I do understand the heartfelt pain you are experiencing and hope you find some comfort that you 'feel close to him like he is at my side and in my heart that is very poignant.

Take good care of yourself

Chloe<3

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