❤️ At the age of 20 in’97 he took his life.
For me well for instance today I felt suicidal and thought of him a lot. Snd his death is one reason why I have ptsd.
I wonder where he is... heaven, some other place where energies collect?
Anyway it’s not good to keep things bottled up, like he did. So here I am.
Thanks for listening. ❤️
A very warm welcome to you Starrlight
You're very clearly distressed about your brother and I am really so very sorry you've been through such a difficult time. It so sad for you and I can imagine why you've thought about him at a time when you're feeling so low yourself {{{hugs}}}
You're always welcome here and we will always listen to you.
I'd very much like you to contact one of the links I have posted below if you're feeling bad, they are professionals and they can offer you the best help.
Chloe
Resources for distressed and suicidal members include:
Mood juice moodjuice.scot.nhs.uk/about...
Samaritans freephone 116 123
Breathing Space 0800 83 85 87
Papyrus HOPELineUK on 0800 068 41 41
thecalmzone.net
helpguide.org/articles/suic...
E books for free thehopeline.com/ebooks/
sane.org.uk/sane_on_suicide
teenlineonline.org/ (USA)
Thank you so muchChloe.
hi star sure your loving brother I up in heaven looking over you urging you on to com through difficult times.god bless and take care.
Hi Kenster. Thank you 🙏 😊
no worries star hope your ok after sharing the post.
I dont know Kenster. I have mixed feelings and I think my beliefs spiritually reflect my not so good mental state and not sure if I’ll make it through this life. I can barely believe I’ve done it this long. My walk helped though and I’ll take another walk soon. Thanks for asking how I am.
Thank you very much
Hi Starrlight, I’m so sorry about your brother. So sad . It’s hard. I lost my best friend to suicide 10 years ago. I think of her every day. I question myself, did I do the right thing. It comes and goes, but I miss her every day. It’s a terrible thing. I pray for them and ourselves.LD
I’m sorry for your loss too. Thanks for prayers. I’ll say some too for us all to stay in the light.
Hi Starrlight.
I can relate to the suicide aspect, though who I lost was not my brother. Details are irrelevant I think, but I can understand the effects suicide has on us. I hope you're getting the help you need in terms of PTSD and trying to heal.
As far as what happens after we die, I have read a lot, especially since I lost Josh, and I believe our loved ones stay near us in a way but that they are in a different form. If you read any books on mediums they usually say this. Also, I had experiences that showed me this same thing in the. Whining after losing Josh. I would encourage exploration of your beliefs to maybe help bring you comfort.
Anyway, I wish you the best in healing.
So nice of you to share. Blessings to you.
You’re right I am exploring my spirituality more these days... hopefully I find what I’m looking for. Best to you AuraAethyr
So sorry for your loss and the resulting pain that you have been feeling all these years. Know that life is worth living. I know that the hope of heaven and eternity has made some losses much easier to bear.
I would encourage you to seek counseling if at all possible. If not, know that there are several crisis resources such as the suicide prevention line or the crisis text line 741741 are available. I hope that helps.
You know Starlight, however which way we go ,it doesn't make any difference. I don't really believe in HEAVEN and Hell.
We all have our own opinions, but I truly believe that in Gods own time He will raise the Good from the Ashes and leave the bad in the Ground.
I don't believe in the saying, ( To burn in hell )because i don't THINK God would punish people that way.
When we die ,i believe that God keeps the Souls of the good ,and leaves the rest to Whatever ???.
When we are all brought back to life ,we won't have the Body's that we have now.
These are our Earthly Bodies.
But when we are raised, we will all have our Heavenly Bodies. With no illness, No Limbs missing...No Pain or worry Just Heavenly.
I think that where we are living now is HELL anyway .
God made the Earth Yes. BUT.
Man himself i think have spoilt it.
And now it's what i call HELL.
Starlight, don't worry. God is looking after your Little Brother, just like he's looking after mine. My Brother was 24 years old. One day we'll all be together again ..At least thats what I think.!!!.
Goodnight Godbless Everyone. Gjkas x.
Gjkas Hi I very much appreciate you sharing your opinions /beliefs. I don’t have the answers of course and no one can know for sure exactly how it is with God and the afterlife but I wish I felt God’s comfort now as I struggle here and wish we knew our brothers were safe too. I used to feel God or at least I thought I did. Yes earth is like a hell. I keep wishing to be gone from it every day.
I know Starlight, i say my prayers every night and sometimes I think to myself, WHY??. Yes I understand, i wish to be gone from here as well.
Im so very sorry for the loss of your Brother. It hurts like hell.!!!!.
My Brother is buried with my Mum & Dad. But I'm making myself ill because I haven't been able to get up to the Cemetery .My Dad passed away on DECEMBER 10th, It would be my Mum's Birthday on BOXING Day, DECEMBER 26th and she passed away on DECEMBER 31st, New Year's EVE.
My Brother passed away in the January ,He didn't take his own life though. He'd not long come out of the Army. He hadn't been married very long, and they had a Baby Girl just 5 weeks old. He got a job as a Fireman on the Railway. But when his train pulled in at EBBW JUNCTION he noticed the Signal on the opposite side of the track wasn't working. So he crossed the line to change it manually, because he knew there was another train due shortly . But before he could get back to his own side of the track. The other train came early, and went right over my Brother and killed him instantly.
Why,,,Why,,Why i keep asking myself. I ask God as well My Head just goes round in circles. But still no answers.
No one can tell us, because nobody knows..
Let's keep our hope that there is a HEAVEN. I wish you the Best in Healing.
Sooooo sorry about your bro! And parents. I wrote you lots but reply didn’t work. I’ll try again soon... mostly talk of belief in God
Thankyou Starlight. Any time you want to talk or have a rant, im here
Like now, I'm thinking, when People keep saying, Life is Precious .
I think to myself, ( Yeah Right ,Is It ).
But then I think to myself, Well Yes.
If all my Loved Ones were still here with me. Then Yes, it is Precious..
Hope you're okay. x Gjkas.
I hear ya. Sorry I’m having a bit of a time over here. I know what you mean. Life can be precious but then there’s the junk that gets in the way ... buuuut we can’t let it knock us down we’ve got to fight and smile at each other and walk in the sun or under the moon 🌙 💫
I hope that you never feel suicidal again but, if you do, that you will remember the grief experienced by those left behind. Then you will not wish to inflict that on your family or friends.
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