I'm sick and tired of feeling like this. 3 years ago I received a 'probable bechets diagnosis'. At the moment I'm on cholchine, stomach protection medication and pain medication. There are so many different drugs I'm on there is too many to list. I practically have all the symptoms relating to bechetts. And this is the worse I've felt since having my diagnosis. I'm sick and tired of them putting up my pain medication I want them to start properly treating this horrible disease. I don't know what else to do. My GP is fantastic but my local hospital is dreadful. They unfortunately do not know enough about the disease. And accuse me of lying. Since January 18th I've hardly left mY bedroom. I'm in so much pain and I'm not going to up my painkillers all the time. I'm so depressed and feel so alone. I now have to have someone with me when my husband goes to work. This is because my joints are so bad. I would rather go through child birth. And I've had 3 children. I've stayed quiet for so long. I've been patient, I've done everything they have asked. I can't carry on anymore. I'm crying and I don't know why. I've had this forever and still I can't figure out what to do next. I'm thinking of asking my GP to refer me to another bechets centre. The one I'm at is so busy. My next appointment is 6 months away and my last appointment was in August last year. My GP can never get hold of the clinic and when he does he gets no where. Out of the three centres in England which one is the best. Thank you for reading my little note.