I feel like things are spiralling. I have lost the peer supporter job at the Mbu as they think I am too unwell. Thing is I know I’m unwell. And it’s shit. My mood just get lower and lower and lower and I shut myself off from everyone and don’t speak to anyone. I haven’t been to college. I’m struggling bad again. Things aren’t as bad as they were. It’s just a depression now. I feel like I have undiagnosed bipolar and it’s ruining my life. My mh team are absolutely crap. They say I have eupd and just need therapy. They started the therapy and it was total bollox. Not relevant to me or my life at all. So they agreeed to stop. Iv been on so many antidepressants that don’t work. I do all the things which are meant to make you feel better like going out and keeping busy. But nothing gets rid of this crappy depression. I’m feeling abit lost
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Hello Bumblebeeee,read your post this morning and sorry to read that you are feeling a bit lost.
In my recovery/recoveries from psychosis a few years ago now looking back I often tried too hard to get well.I hope that makes sense.Having the safety net of the Mbu may have come at a good time to be able to pick up on the fact that you are too unwell at the moment.
Everything in my experience of being unwell seemed to have been bounded by time and felt a bit like a race to have everything back in place or an overriding urge to help others as well as myself.
If I was to tell my younger self one thing now it would be it will all work out and to be kinder to myself.
"Deep Rest" can be another way of saying de-pression.After a prolonged period of mania the body is calling out to redress the balance and sleep/rest can equalise this.
Be kind to yourself and if you have to take things a bit slower for a bit longer you will get there at your pace.
Cozandco x
The first time.it.happened to me my GP would explain to me how when it happens your brain loses enzymes and it takes time to build those back up, that always stuck with me as the first time it happens you feel like your never going to be the same.again, everything just takes time unfortunately
That is a good explanation by your GP.One Doctor I had use to say similar in that the drugs we are given to help are "Vitamins" for the brain.
Oh yeah and talking of vitamins I take high strength magnesium supplements which help me a lot and I have these nutrition shakes for breakfast that are packed with vitamins, I think that helps me out a lot and drinking lots of water through the day, diet is everything when you have depression
Hello Bumblebee,
I am feeling your pain, too. It is quite a task in trying to tune into your body, trying to listen to your needs after PPP. A LOW is like trying to wipe away dust, which does not come off easily and returns.
During after care there were a few health professionals, who gave me light, a stepping stone into a new direction. Like you I wanted to get better and tried to reach out and find avenues, which may help my needs. The support group was extremely important to me, because exactly at that time I lost my father. What I learnt at the time was that I can not put a deadline on my recovery time. I can not change the past or catch up there where I was before PPP. Everything has had to be at a certain pace and in stepping stones. The realisation of managing my life differently now has been a learning curve and the support of others gave me a foundation in "life management".
Recovery is unique and when you think your moving forward nicely, of a sudden it throws stones into your path and you need to Pause for a while. Being in acceptance with that and to embrace the moment helps me to accomplish tasks. At a low I have to slow down and only do the things I can handle such as routine for my son, meditation, long walks, focusing on my art therapy course (distance learning) and lots more...I usually have to step back from people and recharge my batteries. You will figure out a way eventually. It takes time.
In my learning process of living with my ups and downs I sometimes have to say no, where I can not fulfil people's expectations and in the past that made me feel at a loss like grieving - I am fine nowadays, it is just the way how I function! At the end whatever I do is for my family, my happiness and health, and if I can give, I need to look after myself first.
I believe that your choice of path is happening for a reason and yes, the realisation of not being able to do certain tasks at the moment is fine, too. When you find strengths you will look out for projects that suit your needs more and/or you know that it will have to be a bit more "bite sized", more manageable and achievable.
Take care ,
x
Is there one thing that makes you feel OK? For me it's a very simple thing like music.
Yeah I have a happy playlist of upbeat songs, put some music on and have a dance around the house, I wouldn't get through my day in work if I didn't have spotify, lifesaver!
Gosh, Mike is right...simplicity is available and the momentum...nature, too! x
Hi Bumblebeeee,
So sorry you're feeling depressed and isolated and that you can't get the support you want from your MH team. We're all listening to you and we care about you. It's sometimes hard to remember but you matter and it can get better.
I had problems with my MH team and found making a formal complaint about the care I was getting was the only thing that cut through, but I know when you're ill doing that is a big ask. Is there anyone who can complain on your behalf? Or do you have a GP who might help? Maybe the MBU can connect you with some help? I went back to my MBU in crisis years after my PP and they saved me again - they knew me, they knew the care available and they cared.
It's a cliche but the Samaritans are amazing, I've used them so many times and they listened and provided support without me leaving the house. Have you tried that? They have an email service too if you prefer writing to talking.
Let us know how you are.
x
So sorry that you are feeling this way. It is awful feeling hopeless. I have no advice but wanted to post in solidarity xXxXx
Hi Bumblebeeee
I'm sorry you are feeling unwell and lost. How are you today? I hope you feel a little better.
I know how you are feeling on the rollercoaster of recovery. Have you tried keeping a mood diary? If you can keep a record of moods, sleep etc for a couple of months then you could go to your doctor to discuss whether you possibly have bipolar and how they could help you.
In the meantime be kind to yourself and do things that you enjoy whilst not putting yourself under pressure. My favourite things to do when feeling low are to get outside and walk the dogs, do something with the kids like watch a film or have a relaxing bath. I also ask my mum for help if the house is getting too much
I hope you are feeling more like yourself soon
Take Care
Teresa x
Hi Bumblebeeee,
I can empathize with your story. Mental health can be such a rollercoaster ride that just doesn’t seem fair and sucks most of the time!
One thing that helped me during my depression time was so wise words from my mentor mom. She told me during the worst part of depression just take things minute by minute. Then when that seems manageable take things hour by hour, then day by day, week by week. And eventually you will have a stretch of a few good days or weeks that never seemed possible in the depths of depression.
Never give up faith that you will feel better some day. And even when you do feel better we all have crappy days no matter what!! Especially during PMS time 
Also counseling has been the biggest help for me. I’m on my 6th counselor in the past almost 6 years. If a counselor stopped working for me(1 I saw for 2 years) then I would go out and find someone better suited for me. I recommend someone trained in trauma.
I wish the best for you! Don’t loose hope
Anne
Thank you everyone. I’m ok. Still feeling it hard to post really as I just can’t think what to say. My minds just numb at mo x
Hey, try not to feel too down about the mbu thing, maybe it's something you can pick up again when you feel better, you will get to a better place again, it sounds like you've taken on a lot of stuff, I've tried different talking therapies, some were good some not so good, I think you have to find someone you click with, there was one lady that I had and I felt like it wasn't going anywhere but after a while things got better and she was really.helpful, i think.a lot depends on the therapist and whether you gel with them, i found focusing on healthy eating really helps my mood like cutting down on sugar and caffeine ( or at least I try to lol) and I try to exercise but find it hard to.keep it up but I always feel better when I do it, I have a ten min workout that I do sometimes (i.dont do.it as.much as I should) even just jumping around for 5 or 10 mins can give you a boost in the morning, I know it's annoying when people are like do this do that and sometimes you just cantxxx
Hey hope youve had an ok day today xx
Yeah thanks still plodding on x
It's awful when your in the thick of it and just every little thing feels like a struggle, you will come out the other side, xx
Hi I would encourage anyone taking medication for anxiety to try high doses of magnesium, think there's other supplements that help as well, I've been told it helps to calm and restore balance to the nervous system, especially if anyone is coming down or off medications
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