I'm so glad to have found this website and community. I've been reading your posts all the time. I was diagnosed with PPP 9 months post partum. I've had it since the birth but was able to his it well. I knew something was off because I was over protective of the baby and had weird thoughts and paranoia but somehow I was able to hide it well. Now I'm on Zyprexa and feeling really scared that'll I'll have to be on it for the rest of my life because I can't sleep without it. Im obsessing about how Zyprexa will shorten my life and i won't get to see my baby grow. Have any of you had similar thoughts about meds. However, I am greatful because if not for the zyprexa I wouldn't be here because the psychotic break was so severe that I lost touch with reality.