I'm sorry

[pinkladystar]

Apologies to everyone if I upset any one with my previous post as it wasn't Intended.

[Rachel_at_APP Partner APP]

Hello Pinkladystar,

I’m really glad you’re here writing. There is no need to apologise, I hope you’re ok this afternoon. I’m so sorry to hear you’re having a tough time. The knot you described sounds so painful. I am sorry.

I am here today and tomorrow, so let’s write here if that’d help? There are so many people who care about you were listening to you Pinkladystar.

You’re not on your own facing this.

Samaritans are there too anytime, phone 116123.

Do you have some things written down to help keep you safe lovely? Have a read on Minds website: mind.org.uk/need-urgent-help/

Hugs, Rachel x

[pinkladystar in reply to Rachel_at_APP]

Hi Rachel Thank you for commenting

[Rachel_at_APP Partner APP in reply to pinkladystar]

Sending virtual hugs Pinkladystar. Hope you’ve managed to get some rest today. Thinking of you. Rachel x

[pinkladystar in reply to Rachel_at_APP]

Hi Rachel no unfortunately didn't get rest. It was a difficult day.it is so much harder when your trying to end it and you physically can't

[Rachel_at_APP Partner APP in reply to pinkladystar]

Good morning pinkladystar, I am sorry you’ve not been able to get any rest. Do you have the crisis phone number you can call? I think that might be useful to call if you’re feeling like this. I am sending so many well wishes - that I really hope you can feel through my words. I believe you when you say you’re feeling like this, and I am so sorry it’s so awful just now. I can imagine that these feelings are frightening. I hope you can find some safety and support to help you feel that bit better again. Write here anytime Pinkladystar. We’re here for you. Rachel x

[pinkladystar in reply to Rachel_at_APP]

Thank you Rachel it means a lot x

[pinkladystar in reply to Rachel_at_APP]

Feeling annoyed with myself today

[Rachel_at_APP Partner APP in reply to pinkladystar]

I can imagine the immense frustration and sadness Pinkladystar, but you’re more than worth taking care of. I hope you believe that, and if that hope is waning just now - you can definitely borrow some of my hope for a better future for you.

You can walk this path to getting better. It’s painful I know. But it’s not always going to be this way lovely.

Do you write at all? Journal? Are you able to go for some fresh air? Hope is there, signs of spring are coming - you can get better.

Rachel x

[pinkladystar in reply to Rachel_at_APP]

I just don't know how though

[pinkladystar]

Why is it harder to end it when you really want to

[Rachel_at_APP Partner APP in reply to pinkladystar]

Pinkladystar please do go along to A&E or phone for help lovely. You are more than worth a better time here in this life that you have - the distress you’re feeling just now isn’t the answer. There are brighter and happier times to be had. We can navigate this, one step at a time. HOPE - someone I met once told me that stands for Hold On Pain Ends. Not in more sadness, but in a brighter future.

I wonder if you’ve ever had a second opinion appointment before? I know you’ve had support from your mental health team - but they could also refer you to receive a second opinion. I’ll pop the link here. Perhaps you could share it with the team?

Rachel x

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[pinkladystar in reply to Rachel_at_APP]

What does the second opinion appointment mean

[Rachel_at_APP Partner APP in reply to pinkladystar]

Evening Pinkladystar,

The Cardiff University Psychiatry Service (CUPS) offers a second opinion psychiatry service or consultation to patients, with the aim of assisting and advising clinicians and their patients in diagnosis and management.

It’s only health professionals that can refer for a potential second opinion from the service, hence suggesting that you talk about it with your mental health team.

It might just be worth mentioning, as I can hear how much you’ve been holding. And maybe someone might be able to make other suggestions. Not definitely, but it could be worth a conversation at least.

I saw this picture just now, and thought of you. Don’t forget you’re significant to people and you matter.

Rachel

Words on paper

[Nanabluebell Volunteer]

Dear Pinkladystar, you are stronger than you think. One day at a time one foot in front of the other, difficult to see sometimes when you feel so rubbish and feeling better seems to take its own time. Think in little blocks of time, I like to draw flowers, what do you like to do. Make a list of your achievements, be they little or big. A walk for a few minutes perhaps, the signs of spring, such a hopeful time of year, are there. Snowdrops so pretty by the wayside, soon celandine and primroses, blossoms, all sign that life and beauty return after the dark winter time. As Rachel said You are worth it take the help that is out there. It is hard just now for you but soon, life and the simple joys can be there again. You are writing here, you are keeping going, you are braver than you know. Hold on.

Warm best wishes with hugs

Judith x

[Jenny_at_APP Partner]

Hello pinkladystar

I’m so sorry to hear how much you’re struggling. I hope writing here and reading the words of hope and support help a bit. You matter and you are important.

What you are feeling and the thoughts you are having won’t last forever, please keep reaching out and trying to get the help you need through the dark times.

Keep reaching out to your mental health team and being open about the extent of your distress. Keep those numbers to hand of services that are there to listen when you need to reach out. Stay safe and keep holding on through this time - there are better times ahead.

You can use the following helplines if you need to talk:

Samaritans - 116 123

Text SHOUT to 85258

thecalmzone.net/

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Call the crisis team or dial 111 and select the mental health option.

If you don’t feel you can keep yourself safe, dial 999 or get yourself to A&E.

You’ve got through dark times before lovely, you can get through these times too. You’re so much stronger than you think, we’ll help hold that hope when you can’t see it, just keep going one step at a time.

Thinking of you and sending much love,

Jenny xx