funeral . will I be able to go.?

today was the funeral of one of my friends from my local blind club, the last time I was supposed to go to a funeral in march I was just not well enough to be able to cope with sadness of losing a family friend, but over the last few weeks with my new positivity , and changes in my medication I was determined to go, well it was hard ,and very emotional, but I kept it together till I got home then my anxiety kicked in, but I am so pleased with myself that I went, I am sure a lot of my confidence is due to reading your great positive blogs, love to you all, take care. xxx

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Another positive blog

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thanks lindalou, hope you are well, xxx

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I know, lets hope there are lots more.x

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newton

Sorry to hear you lost a friend , but well done for going to the funeral

You have come along way & its great to read what you have achieved

The anxiety kicking in once you got home , I would say is normal after facing such an ordeal , so don't feel you shouldn't have felt this way because I think you have been a star today

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Say hello to your lovely wife from me

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lovely words again whywhy, wifes got a tear in her eyes, xxx

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Bless her , tell her I hope its a happy tear

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Well done newton,

I managed to go to my brothers son's funeral, he was 18 yrs old and had a car accident, killed outright.

I couldn't manage the church service, but did get to the burial, I loved him very much, and felt so guilty, as he was on his way to me when the accident happened.

At the burial, I couldn't drop the earth on the coffin, not sure why, we all do things in our own way I guess.

I still miss him loads everyday, I feel honoured to of known him for all of his 18 yrs.

When I see my brother, who has found hiding his grief in a whisky bottle his way of dealing with it, and his wife, a large crack opens up in my heart, as I seem to feel their grief.

My brother had to stay strong at the time for his wife who went to pieces. We all deal with it in different ways, and although I don't like alchohol, and how it changes peoples characters, I understand it was my Brothers way, and I cant say anything negative about it, even though I am concerned.

B

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Hi Baylien

Sorry to hear about your Nephews sad death. Like you say everyone deals with grief in their own ways.

It is never nice when anyone passes, but at such a young age and such sad circumstances. My eldest is that age and anything like this just makes you want to keep your kids close.

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hi baylien, what a terribly sad story, my heart really goes out to you, you were obviously very very close to your brother, please take care, xxx

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So sad and so hard to live with.You have my sympathy .Your brother may find his way through in his own time,I hope so

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Hi Newton,

I am so sorry to hear about you lossing a friend, but you've done so well in overcoming you anxiety.

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thank you worried take care x

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Hello Newton

Well done for attending the funeral. Not the nicest thing to do, but to be able to get through the service is brilliant. x

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thank you for that lou really am pleased I got there and got thru it .x