Keep calm and carry on ! If only ....

[Kaz12345]

If only it were that easy! I am trying to get through this, as we all are. Still have the awful mornings, first awakening is awful, the thoughts of dread about the future and what ifs, are always there, sometimes the gagging and wretching.

I keep trying to tell myself the future is the future, whatever happens will happen, me obsessing and worrying about it won't change it, and in fact, might even make what I fear happen. As well as anxiety I feel I'm depressed, a general feeling of what is life about and real boredom with the general mundanity of general day to day life, but only I can change that life.

I know the general 'prescription' for anxiety and any type of depressive illnesses is don't think about yourself so much, keep busy, find an interest, exercise, etc. I am a great over thinker and analyser and do believe I have too much time to think. It would be oh so easy to lie in bed all day, or sit motionless on the sofa and I've had plenty of those days. But, as I said, I'm trying. And I do find that all the things mentioned above do help. I try to walk a lot (dogwalking), see friends when I can, (but need more friends!), make myself get up and start doing something helps. This morning I've got up, got kids off to school, washed up, radios on, prepped potatoes and leeks for fish pie later today. Give me a medal someone! Out for a dog walk soon. But the days can seem so long. Anyway, just my ramblings. This site has been great and I know I haven't felt such a weirdo since finding out so many others suffer with anxiety! Sstill hard not to keep beating oneself up tho for being 'weak'... But trying to manage that as well! Good songs come on so its going to be blasted out and I'm gonna have a dance around the kitchen ... Wishing everyone a good day!

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Hi Kaz, Here's your medal>>>>>*<<<<<<<! It's hard isn't it? But you're getting there, so well done you. Might put the radio on and have a dance with you! I managed to get up and out this morning too (progress!) and yes, this site is great...people here understand that the small steps are great acheivements. Enjoy the dance and have a good day.

Ann x

[Kaz12345]

Thanks Ann. well done to you too for getting out. yes, what seem small steps to others we can all appreciate here! The sun is shining too !! X

[stde]

I once heard that sometimes the worst company is our own head..lol...This is true when you don,t feel so good with ruminating thought, but once your head slows down it can become good company...until then keep doing what makes you happy.......stde

[Kaz12345]

That is so true. I've often wished lately that someone could knock me out for 6 Months and I'd wake up 'better' !!

[ruby4me in reply to Kaz12345]

Oooh Kaz ....i'd like that too!! sounds good to me but it would have to be between october and march please!

ruby

[Trip]

Kaz i am so sorry to see you are down "BIG HUG" you know you can beat this, you tel me that all the time.. if i do it then you can i mean that.

You are a very strong person,you will win this fight i will not let you lose.

Trip x