I have suffered social anxiety my entire childhood and I'm 19 years of age. I have managed to pluck up the courage to attend the gym and have been going for a few months however, I was taught in CBT sessions that if I keep going to the gym and face my fears regularly, they will reduce. My fears have not reduced one bit and only today I was there and I panicked because I thought some people were laughing at me in the pool (I have ginger hair and I am overweight so I thought they would be mocking this)
This is just one example. I have fears like this in all environments, not just the gym. I'm terrified of people laughing at me all the time. I have been wondering if I am suffering from Gelatophobia because the fear is extremely intense and nobody can understand why I am fearing it so much.
I feel like there are no decent people left in society and people just judge based on looks all the time. I feel I am at the bottom of the social ladder because I'm not good looking. I've never had a girlfriend either and I feel like there is injustice because all the better looking guys have more fun than me even though they may not have a caring personality (like I say, superficial)
I cannot talk about this with family or frineds as this is a disorder and they simply don't understand. I dont know what to do anymore because CBT obviously does not work for me and I've had counselling for years and nothing has worked. The fear is too strong to get rid of.