Hello all. I guess this isn’t so much a question, more that I am looking for reassurance that the vicious circle I get myself into quite frequently is cope able and not that uncommon (I hope)...
Sometimes (especially in the mornings) I simply don’t feel ‘right’ which then triggers an automatic, “Oh, what’s going on here, why do I feel a bit odd?” Then the over-analysing of over every thought and physical sensation uncontrollably begins. That in turn makes me question why can’t I feel right like normal people? Why do I constantly feel like I am crazy. Of course next is the racing thoughts “What if I am going mad? What if I am losing it? Why am I over-analysing everything? Hang on, if I am over-analysing everything I must be losing it? I don’t want to end up like this all the time. Why do sounds seems louder?” etc... etc... etc... Which then makes me worry even more about my thoughts and then the feelings of irrational morbidness and paranoia kick in. “I don’t know if I can cope. What if these feelings are forever? How will I ever function properly?” And so on and on and on.
Obviously the above isn’t normal, but do others feel like this? Do you end up getting yourself in a complete mental state over simply not feeling ‘right’? Personally I over worry and over analyse everything, which ends up with these cycles of weirdness and racing thoughts. I do a very good job of hiding these feelings. I hold down a professional job and have a young family. My wife knows all about it, but sometimes work is affected due to the above. I usually go out and get fresh air and take deep breaths. Anyway, I am just venting here to you good people! Sometimes it’s just good to get stuff off your chest in a rant. Thanks for listening.