Hi I'm new to the site and wondered how many cancer sufferers are on here? I am 32 and up until May 2011, my life was pretty great. Then I got diagnosed with a really rare incurable cancer and my world crumbled. I've spent the last 15 months in and out of hospital - this has obv caused a lot of stress and anxiety but i just about coped with the help of Lorazapam, family and friends. In March this year I was told I had responded very well to treatment and altho my future is uncertain, things are looking very positive physically. I was so happy... For all of about two days. Then the serious anxiety kicked in- since March I've had severe panic attacks every day, hysterical tears, awful claustrophobia and agrophobia. I am so needy, I find it hard to go anywhere without my partner ( who had to be signed off work with anxiety and depression). I've been to see a psychiatrist who reckons I've got PTSD and panic disorder. Since my diagnosis I've tried CBT, hypnotherapy, reflexology etc.Ive taken citalapram, pregablin and lorazapam and nothing is working long term. Ive tried talking, not talking, crying, going back to work- I currently can't work as I can't even walk out my front door without hyperventilating. My hypnotherapist has suggested a spiritual retreat which im going to attend (if I can) but don't hold out much hope. I feel desperate - all I want to do is go back to work and normalise my life a bit, as I believe distraction is probably my best bet.
Anyone else with any similar stories? Any positive outcomes?
Sorry for the essay and thanks for reading x