Feeling low today

[Littlecook]

If only I got the time right for my doctors appointment, I would probably be having my medication that I need , I feel like a idiot for getting the time so wrong , my mind feels so far away somewhere in the clouds .I've got a new appointment but with a different doctor on the 25th February if only the weather would improve then at least I could go into the garden.

My mind feels empty at the moment, if only I had friends at home who I could have a cry in front off someone who understands me but I don't, I've kept my self to myself for years and never mixed but now I'm paying for my mistakes.

[Haribo58]

The amount of times I've gotten an appointment time wrong....I couldn't put a number on as I've done it so many times .your certainly not an idiot...you have alot on your mind...your anxious...upset...overwhelmed and desperate to find a solution...it's a completely understandable mistake given the circumstances. Yes your obviously devastated that your now having to wait longer but you can also use this extra time to go through your list of things you want to discuss...it's surprising how quickly time passes and between now and your next appointment there will be some day's to do something in the garden...even if its cold. I understand how hard it is to cry alone and have no shoulder to lean on but if you feel those tears building up...let them them flow...allow time to pass and be kind to yourself to the best of your ability...you will eventually have your time with the doctor ❤️