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[TraceyEssex]

Hi I haven’t been on here for 3 years now but just came across an email from them whilst looking for one and wanted to give even just one person some hope . Four years ago after some traumatic events in my personal life my mum who was my best friend was diagnosed with cancer , I gave up work and took care of her during surgery and months of treatment only for it to return 6 months later , this time there was nothing they could do and she passed away 😔 I hit the floor , I was nauseas , in physical pain , I did not leave the house , most of the time I couldn’t get out of bed , I had constant panic attacks , I had the fight or flight feeling in my tummy 24/7 and I just stopped eating , at 8 and a half stone I could not afford to lose the almost two stone that fell off in a matter of 3 months . My sister took me to the doctor a few times , after tests showed no physical illness he referred me for therapy and put me on antidepressants , i didn’t to die but I knew that was the way I was going and my doctor had told me if I didn’t start to eat he would have me sectioned . When I first saw the therapist all I did was cry for the first three sessions and I thought al what she was coming out with was rubbish but something made me listen and thinking I had nothing to lose I took note of everything she said , everything she told me to do and day by day I realised it was actually helping me . I saw her twice a week and within two months I started to eat , very small amounts at first but it was food , the nausea and fight or flight feeling that I had had constantly slowly started to ease , I saw her for nine months . Now 3 years later I am me again , I love life and I love being me , don’t get me wrong I have bad days sometimes but I am off all meds and I get through them with mindfulness , deep breathing , yoga and exercise reading the cbt therapy that I had done during that time helps too . I read lots of books about anxiety and depression that also helped so so much . I know everyone is different but basically I just want to say please please don’t feel like you are alone because your not , there is light at the end of your dark tunnel so please ask for help , if this helps just one person feel a little more positive and get some help I will be happy . If anyone would just like to say hi or have a chat please message me . Hang on in there 😊😊 Tracey xxxxx

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Hello

How lovely to read a post where someone was so down feeling there was not hope but proven that there is and life can get better

Thank you for sharing this I am sure it will give comfort to many that are suffering

I hope what you have today long continues

Take Care x

[Cicinoodle]

You are very kind to try to help others. I am so sorry about your Mom and all you went through. I had a similar experience when my Dad was ill, terrible stomach issues related to anxiety and depression ,as the strongest man in my life was dying, I felt I was too.

It is a very dark and lonely path when you are dealing with things like that

Thank you for sharing and letting the friends on here know there is light at the end of that tunnel,

Big Hug

[Mojogone]

Hiya

Interesting story and great inspiration on how you managed to get through your struggles