Obsessed with obsessing

[DemureRose]

It seems like if I don’t have something to obsess over, I’m lost. It’s like I can’t function if I’m not immersed in some sort of tv show, book, movie, or fan fiction.

I mean when I find a tv show I like, I get through every season (no matter how many) within days. Days. And once I finish it the first time I immediately start again. This continues for weeks if not months on end. And during that time I’m okay. But at some point, some random moment, I hit a wall where I decide I’m done with whatever it is. That moment is always really scary because I’m completely lost as to what I’m supposed to do. How am I supposed to go on without having an obsession?

Entering quarantine, I was in that spot. I had nothing to obsess over and I was in a constant state of anxiety. Finally, I decided to reread a book series that I had read in years. There are five books, I finished in a week. And after that, I read fan fiction after fan fiction, not ready to let it go yet. Once I ran out of fan-fictions to read, I jumped to another book series. Five books once again, and once again I finished within a week. And I repeated the same habit and read fan-fictions to ease my mind. Well unfortunately this series didn’t have many fan fictions so I had to think fast.

So I decided to rewatch all of the Harry Potter movies. Bad thing is...it only took me one day. And I’ve been rewatching them for days now while also reading Harry Potter fan fiction, which luckily there is an abundance of.

Unfortunately, I think I’ve hit that point, or I’m about to, where I’m just not interested in the topic anymore. Except now I’m terrified because I literally have nothing else to do. And I get stuck in the endless cycle of everything must end so even if I find something else it’ll eventually end and then I’m stuck. And I don’t know what to anymore.

It’s normally not this bad because I can usually distract myself with other things, such as a school routine or family gatherings. But obviously I can’t do that now. It’s just much harder when there’s no distractions. It’s so much harder.

Am I the only one who deals with this issue? If not, to those that also feel this way, how do you stop it or at least control it? It’s

[Damian]

It's different things for me, but I certainly get into that position. I'll go through phases when I've got some hobby that I'm doing in every moment I can spare. Then I'll finish the project I'm working on, or get bored with it, and I end up just hanging around unsure what to do.

It would be nice not to have the in-between periods, but I'm not sure how to avoid them. I have to take the time to decide what to do! Also I think perhaps it's not possible to do something obsessively all the time. Maybe I need to take a rest sometimes, even though it's a bit frustrating—I don't know.

[blue-angel1001]

The idle mine is the devils playground! This saying is so popular and well known because it is HUMAN to want to have something to focus on! Our brains need to be stimulated or else they become weak and when they are weak ... guess what? Anxiety! Obsessions! Doubt! Guilt! All that negative shit comes marching in like the royal parade. Don’t worry, you are SOOO not alone. In fact, I feel like you are normal! I got the same problem and I am also the ultimate fan girl!! I have OCD and go to therapy so I know how to deal with obsessive mindset but it is very important to do active coping like mindfulness!