Thought it couldn’t get worse...ha

[DemureRose]

So...I recently posted about how a trip that’s been planned for months was cancelled because of the Coronavirus. Devastating doesn’t begin to describe how it felt. Luckily though, I was beginning to get over it and move on.

Ha.

But as it always seems to work out for me, life decided to throw another anxiety inducing possibility to me.

I was prepared for events like prom to be cancelled. And I thought in the back of my head “what about graduation?” But I rejected that thought because it’s literally like two months away. Surely not.

So finally feeling not so depressed about the trip, I go out grocery shopping with my parents. When we get home, first thing my brother does is announce that there’s a possibility that school may just end. That’s it. Just...summer!

Now to any other grade, heck yeah right? At first I was like man that’s awesome. Then it hit me. I’m a senior. If school ends...that’s it. I won’t get to enjoy my last prom. I won’t get to get excited for my last time pulling up to school. I won’t get to watch the clock in the classroom hit leaving time. None of it.

Sure, I did have a last day. But I don’t want it to be THE last. I mean...yeah I’m ready to graduate but I don’t want it to end like this. I want to be able to know it’s coming. Honestly, even if we went to school for a week and it ended I’d be okay. Because at least then I’d know the end was coming. But I don’t know if I can mentally handle not graduating.

Fourteen freaking years I have worked towards graduation. It’s not about the diploma. It’s about the recognition you get with a ceremony. I want that. I really really do.

I mean at this point, my school starts again on the 6th. But what if that changes? My god it’s going to freaking mess up the senior class if we don’t get to graduate. It’s going to be crushing. Absolutely crushing.

It’s our senior year and we have 0 control of what happens to it. Psychology? This immense lack of control we’re facing is so damaging. I’m expecting there to be a high number of new cases of anxiety disorders, PTSD, depression, etc.

I know that higher up people are doing what they think is best (I hope that’s why they’re doing it) but I don’t know if they’re thinking of long term consequences. I don’t know if they’re thinking of the damage that they are doing to kids and even adults.

I’m just feeling like so many decisions are being face about parts of my life and I’m not even being considered. It’s my senior year. I have worked too hard and too long to not be given proper recognition. But what do I do? If it’s cancelled...I don’t have a say. Which sucks. But it’s reality. ✌🏻

[kenster1]

hi its hard that education all over the world is suffering as you say you go to school all your young life for this day and for the grades you worked so hard for.i think schools colleges will still plan events like this if possible but its the right thing to do for now.

[DemureRose in reply to kenster1]

I’m a high school senior. They’ve already announced that some states are just cancelled their school year. They even told announced that students wouldn’t receive credit for the missed days so they’d have to repeat the grade. Even seniors.

[Frenchbulldogsx]

Hi

Listen in the whole scheme of things it's a minor concern DemureRose as all of the above can happen in the future it's all on hold.

Spend the time swatting up and increase your learning

Provision will be made in the future but the main emphasis at the moment is to keep people safe and control the virus

Stay positive and stay safe. Speak to your family and friends about your feelings.

Also your holiday like many others may have been cancelled but just think about all the fun you will have on the next one 😁

[HisDaughter]

I am really sorry about how you feel! It's very hard to be alive right now. Our lives have been changed and affected in a great way. Try to stay positive. People making the decisions to close the schools are concerned about the safety of students. Try to be strong. We are suffering. The good thing is that we have our health. Maybe you would benefit from talking to a counselor about how you feel. I hope that you feel better. God bless you!