I hate Saturday nights!

[harv_singh]

Since quitting alcohol I’ve began to dread and hate Saturday nights, I haven’t drank or smoked in over 2 months, Saturdays used to be when I would drink my self drunk and try to forget all my problems, I’d look forward to it, look forward to the numbness, the calmness and warm buzz that alcohol used to bring.

Now saturdays have become this tug of war between me and my anxiety, fighting the urge to drink. I quit the drink and smokes because I wanted to feel proud of myself, I wanted to know that I achieved something good, but the truth is I don’t.

I don’t feel proud, I feel lonely, alcohol was a friend to me, it made me feel good, It gave me respite from all the hurt in my head, I know quitting alcohol is good for my health and will only benefit me in the long run, but I also feel like I’ve lost a good friend, and all I have is the hurt in my head for company.

[Den64]

You need to find something else to fill your time with. Video games, a craft activity like drawing and painting. It's hard I know I too liked a drink but it made my anxiety worse. I slip back sometimes and have a drink and it makes me feel bad again. Not worth it. Talk to someone. Talk to me if you like.

[Agora1]

harv_singh, I'm sure many people feel as you do in that they lost a good friend.

Alcohol and smoking have never been a good friend to you. You depended on both

as a release from your problems. Short term release.

The fact that you have abstained for 2 months shows me you have the determination

to do what's best for you in the long run. But now you need a new friend. A substitution

for a bad habit(s). Going to a support group can help you find others experiencing the

same loss as well as allow you to lean on each other. Exercise has always proven to be

a good deterrent as well as getting an abundance of "good feeling" hormones.

Each one of us needs something in our lives that gives us joy and satisfaction. I hope

you find something that can make Saturday night once again a pleasurable experience. xx