I do hate the shaky feelings, when I first wake up Iām ok for a few minutes then it starts on and off, and then I get the weak feelings in my arms and a little burning. I do wake up with a sudden start sometimes in the morning, donāt think that helps either. So I went to the shop and got some eggs to go with my salad later. What to do today Iām wondering.
I canāt stay indoors all day, and yet the other day when I had that panic has made me feel a bit vulnerable at the moment, I just canāt seem to sit in my garden, yet if I sit in my neighbour across the road with her Iām fine, because Iām with someone and because she has a big open garden whereas mine is very tiny. Yet In my old house (20 yrs ago now) I was always outside doing something but then I had the family around me and it does make a lot of difference, to me being the social person that I am deep down inside. itās weird how it works at times, we can often isolate ourselves from the very thing we donāt like - loneliness. When I was out all the time Iād chat to anyone whether it was at the bus stop, on the bus, or in a shop. Someone would say something and the next thing you know you could be chatting away like youāve known them for ages. I didnāt realise how much I hated my own company until I was in this situation. Does that sound stupid?