Mid day report

Hey peeps!

So, I’m starting to feel more like “me”. Still feel the effects. Right now, I’m feeling more present than I have been, but still a little spacey, a little tired... I had a dizzy spell for 15 mins earlier.

I’m anxious to start making money again so I can save up for the summer, but got anxiety because I really don’t know if I should go back to NYC. My roommate asked me about signing the lease.. I paid rent this month but haven’t been there since late March.

The people at work are showing care but I’m so nervous my panic will be paralyzing again. I really can’t deal with some personalities there, but I’ve stuck through it before. Our landlord is like.. totally unpredictable and can be so extreme. I just don’t know if being in a city I already feel lonely in is a good idea but now that my health anxiety is subsiding, I’m missing my routine.. the gym, going to thrift shops, my studio.. I want all the things I wanted to happen to still happen (people are hitting me up to play shows again, which is great, and I got signed onto a few more sound for film gigs, and I want to get back into extra acting..). I want to be the person I was when my boyfriend met me. I need to really face my fears.. ugh.

But I miss Boston! Maybe I’ll do the summer in NY, ask for a schedule change (this contributed to the stress.. I work late nights and weekends and have like no life), and hope for the best. I’m not sure.. I need to decide soon. What do you guys think?

[Dperez1223]

So glad to hear your better you will figure out what’s best for you

[Hidden in reply to Dperez1223]

Thank you so much Just taking it day by day.

[Agora1]

Unicorn, one thing at a time. It will all fall into place.

So happy for you. Keep us updated with your progress.

My best to you xx

[Hidden in reply to Agora1]

Thank you so much ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[JAYnLA in reply to Agora1]

I'm with Agora... one thing at a time! You have a whole life ahead of you and most decisions don't have to be permanent.

[Hidden in reply to JAYnLA]

You’re right. I just feel pressure since the lease is up this month, and I gotta decide on what to do by next week.. it’s a lot! I’ve made so much progress and I’m afraid I’ll go back there and get back to square one. Ugh!

[JAYnLA in reply to Hidden]

Sounds to me like you're doing GREAT.

[Hidden in reply to JAYnLA]

I hope so.. I get scared that, even though I’m off Zoloft, that the progress I’ve achieved is 100% from that It’s scary! I have been doing therapy hardcore, and I’m hoping the worst of withdrawal already happened. We’ll see! Thanks ❤️❤️❤️

[Want2BHappy3]

Glad you're feeling better, but Why won't you sign the lease? If the landlord is unpredictable, then you might be evicted, that's something that can hit your credit score? And it's Not fair to your roommate, he needs to find someone else. He's got to look after his best interest

[Hidden in reply to Want2BHappy3]

Roommate is a ‘she’... and the lease is up. I don’t have to sign lol. It doesn’t affect my credit score to move