Advice Please - really struggling!

[Oncmed]

I have suffered with crippling anxiety for years. It is only the past year or so I have been able to get to grips with it and live my life ‘to the full’.

I am currently at university studying my masters and the lecturers have treat me so awfully (procedural misconduct) and on Friday unknown to them at the end of a lecture it was still recording and it recorded them discussing me and insulting me. This lecture was uploaded online for all students to hear.

... that was just some background info. I am really really struggling, it has triggered my anxiety. I can’t stop the entire situation whirring around in my head constantly going on and on, running scenarios around and thinking about the process of formal complaints procedures. My mind won’t stop thinking and I cannot sleep. Last night I had 4 hours and now I’m awake again still at 2am.

I would love some advice, I have been to the doctors and on antidepressants before for anxiety but no longer on them. Can the doctor give me anything short term? Should I bother to make an appointment?

Any advice would be really appreciated!

[Darryl Partner]

Keep your appointment

[Hidden]

Oh wow that is awful!! Completely inappropriate for them to be insulting you like that, it shows they are completely biased against you. Short term get on something to at least sleep like Ambien and also something for daytime like Xanax.

[Oncmed in reply to Hidden]

Yeah it’s pretty bad, they don’t like me because I haven’t just accepted their bad treatment and made a complaint so they don’t like it that I have called them out for not following procedure. These members of staff are meant to be who I go to for help and they even mark a future presentation... I’m beyond ill with it. Thank you ill defo ask my doctor about this.

[masa2333]

Hello. That is awful to hear! I would advise you to make an appointment with the dean also and explain the situation to him. It is not professional nor academic and they should not go unpunished for their actions. If they are insulting you, it is probably not their first time nor the last to insult a student. They should be ashamed of that

On the other hand, if your anxiety about the situation is so bad, then you definitely should make an appointment with your doctor. Xanax is great for short term use. Wish you all the luck

[Oncmed in reply to masa2333]

Thank you! I am writing an email to Dean as we speak. I’m hoping to have the situation resolved but have no faith in any member of staff.

[masa2333 in reply to Oncmed]

That is sad to hear. University should be focused on improving student’s life and college experience. I don’t know which college you go in, but they are not cheap. We pay for our knowledge and I think stuff should be more friendly, and NOT get away with stuff like this! You are a decent human being who deserves to be treated accordingly.

[SirGrits]

Hey Oncmed this sounds pretty rough. I agree that you should pursue recourse from the university. It seems like anxiety over how to proceed is also making things worse. So from that angle I encourage you to take action as soon as possible. Taking steps forward will help too, in addition to the advice you've already been given here.