So I’m work in medical, today I took a patient to the ED because she was sick She seemed fine in the clinic but things shifted quickly. When I got down there, so much was going on people came In crying.. chaplain... lady on life support... I think I held my breath seeing so much right now.. and I’m so dizzy shaking and scared.. I felt so bad for all of those people who are going through these things.... I love being in the medical field... with my anxiety and depression idk if it’s best for me now... I’m still scared shaking ... I feel I need to be in the ED NOW.
Sorry about my grammar I’m shaking badly
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Listen to me, I’ve been an ER nurse for 18 years and I have Health Anxiety of all things!! I just recently started taking medication because I wasn’t sleeping, especially before my 12 hour shifts, and the stress of it was about to do me in after all these years. I’m doing much better now, but you have to take a step back every now and then. Someone told me once that of the few people you know or see who have bad things wrong, there’s a million out there who don’t. It helps to think that this isn’t the norm. And if those things are too much that’s ok. That’s why there’s a whole big world of nursing out there. If one thing doesn’t fit you, try something else. Good luck to you!!
I guess because I’ve been doing it for so long.. it’s all I know. But it wasn’t until recently that I started having panic attacks at work and all through the night before work that I realized I needed some help and started taking Citalopram. It really does make a difference. You have a heart for people, that’s why you felt the way you did. It’s not a bad thing. You just have to remember to separate yourself from it. That’s what I do. I think of how I would want someone to take care of my family member if this was them. That’s not to say you can’t feel. You just learn to separate.
You responded exactly as you should have for being a sensitive, compassionate person.
IT IS OK TO CRY and to shake when these things happen when you are new. This is how you learn.
You have every right to feel exactly how you do.
In a few more experiences, you will be more OBJECTIVE, and you will be able to separate yourself from that person.
I suggest that you speak to your adviser, or develop person to person relationships with the people you work with so they can calm your fears, put their hand on your shoulder and you can feel the healing that comes from touch.
We are words on the screen. Meld both.
Please get a support team in person in your hospital for your comfort and understand that ALL of us in this field have felt exactly as you did when you wrote this.
Remember:
The experience is happening to that person, not to you.
AND IF, you have done your job, and have done it as you have been trained to do it, you are absolved of any wrong doings.
So your tears and your fears are from being sensitive and inexperienced.
Actually they called this " baptized by fire" when I worked in the ER.
Give yourself a chance to gain experience and DO NOT JUDGE, your FEELINGS.
Feel them, learn from them and become a great healer.
I feel even bad getting to a point where it doesn’t bother me anymore. I don’t want to be insensitive... or not caring.
I was talking to another young lady that worked hemonc and she said it doesn’t bother her at all... I go down there and I’m a ball of tears... it breaks my heart... the children’s hospital I go to work at as well...
I hope I get to the point I can handle it more I love my job and helping others it’s my passion I truly care.
Thank you again for your kind words, and advice it literally helped so much!
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Shaking
Panic attacks that come outta nowhere
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Night time anxiety
