Afraid to look forward to the future

[Ckd123]

Anybody else like this? I have severe health anxiety and panic disorder and anytime I think of upcoming events in the future I get scared that I’m not going to be around for them. I can’t let myself get excited about events I’m looking forward too. We are moving into our new house in late September/early October, my babies 1st Birthday is November, Christmas is my favorite time of year and then my twin boys are making their confirmation in February. Before anxiety I would get excited about these events and love the excitement, now I just feel fear and dread. I fear I’ll die before enjoying these events with my husband and children. It’s so depressing 😢

[Hidden]

I am in the same boat myself right now and totally understand how you feel. We just moved into our house 2 1/2 months ago and are busy getting settled and planning what we want to do with our huge yard. My daughter who's been living out of state for the last 5 years is moving back the end of this month. My SO and I are going to a fantastic concert in November. I'm fearful of looking forward to any of it for the same reason, scared I won't be around for it.

[Ckd123 in reply to Hidden]

It’s so tough isn’t is? I don’t know how to make my brain think positively instead of negatively x

[Jane1989]

I have developed health anxiety after the birth of my 1st child a few months ago. I would never of let things bother me before..dying, illness etc..after a complicated birth and health complications after the birth I developed awful anxiety particularly health anxiety!! Every time I think I am ok all these awful thoughts creep in what happens if u get a brain hemorrhage, a stroke , a heart attack..any little pain I feel sends me into a panic..it’s so hard being like this when I was so carefree before and I wish I could go back to my style of thinking before my baby..

How did your anxiety develop??you are not Alone in this and I totally get how u feel..

[Ckd123 in reply to Jane1989]

Hi Jane, I developed health anxiety 3 years ago when I turned 32. My mum died from cancer when she was 32. All of a sudden I started imagining what it was like to be her because I was now her age. Dying from cancer and leaving her young children behind. I was so distressed because I felt so young and to know how my mother must have felt tormented me. All of a sudden I started fearing my own demise and constantly worrying about leaving my young children motherless. For some reason it’s heart problems I fear the most and I get a lot of physical symptoms which sends me into panic.

I’m sick of it at this stage and long for my old self but I fear she’ll never return x

[NewUserx]

I don’t look forward to things anymore either.

I’m going away for free nights tomorrow and I’m feeling so sick just thinking about it.

The last time we had a break away I ended up having a panic attack because I was anxious.

I can feel my throat getting tight just thinking about our break