I was fine when I was out today and about I was occupied. I get home and my heads all
Over the place. I'm here laying on a pillow thinking what if I snap and try and smother myself. My throats feels weird and I'm afraid to touch my neck thinking what if I lose control and try and choke myself. I know this sounds crazy but damn anxiety is so annoying . I'm trying to distract myself and watch tv now
Jmerrick22, come on the forum as much as you need to. I'm not sure why you feel you may hurt yourself. Is anyone with you?
Yes lol. I think it's just the excess anxiety and making me paranoid. If you look at my previous posts you can see that tomorrow is the anniversary of a tragic event that I went through
The anxiety just makes me feel all kinds weird crap. Like now I feel like my throat is swelling and my neck. I just wish I'd snap out of it all already
Oh I know it is. The 22nd is ingrained in my head. I guess I was hoping if I didn't mention it, it might make the pain less. I'm hoping that when the day comes and goes you will feel better knowing it's in the past and you can let go. I have been watching your posts and can literally feel the tension and fear going on. I wish there were something we could do to support you through this. You know the forum cares about each other, when one hurts, we all hurt. Know that you aren't going to go through this alone. We will be there by your side helping you through a difficult time.
You're a good person who has given a lot of help to others. Now it is your turn to receive the help you need right now. Everything will be okay. It will all work out.
Stay Positive, Stay Strong. You can and will get through tomorrow.
Hey I can totally relate.
Whenever I go out I’m fine if I’m distracted and around people but the minute I’m at home I’m a wreck! If I lay down to rest or whatever I get so many physical and emotional symptoms it’s so uncomfortable.
Sometimes I get almost a tight feeling around my neck it feels like a band is around it or something squeezing it a bit. I also have had these same worried about snapping and hurting myself this is why I lay down a lot to get myself in a relaxed state. It was mostly a side effect of the pill I was on that was making me feel this way but I still find I get triggered by things easily on days when I don’t have enough sleep or feeling down. I developed a weird fear of knives, cords, rope, shoelaces, any type of long objects I’m still reminded of those times I used to seriously be afraid of them cause of the pills. Yours could be related to medication also. Don’t worry it’s normal to get that just know that if you feel afraid of it thats a good thing cause that means you WOULDNT do anything to harm yourself. Just sit in a comfortable place, kick your feet up and relax!!! You are just fine 
hope that helps!!!!
Jmerrick22, how are you today?
Spending time with family trying to keep occupied lol. I have the psych dr tomorrow so I'm happy . How are you
I was just thinking about you, glad you wrote.
Enjoy the family time. Let us know how your appointment goes tomorrow.
I'm cooking in between checking the forum Wish you well.
anxiety stinks for sure
the way anxiety can make me feel
Can ocd cause weird intrusive thoughts like existential ones? 
Good Afternoon 
No phone.
