Thanksgiving nightmare

I know how bad mom wanted to have a big thanksgiving dinner with the whole family which i convinced her that im okay with it as long as their small kids keep their distance (im terrified of small children) and the adults respect my space as in no hugs handshakes no skin contact ((results of traumatized childhood))

But now i doubt i will be able to handle it im even having trouble sleeping and this migraine is painful enough that i have to hide how im feeling from mom cause i don't want to be selfish

[Agora1]

justcallanxiety, you are not selfish by any means. The holidays are a stressful time but I'm sure your mom would understand your feelings towards a house full of people. Maybe you and your mom can settle on a way you can enjoy the meal but then retreat to your room or another part of the house to relax. It's a lot of stimulus during the holidays so I understand your concerns completely.

Having a plan that both of you agree to will relieve your mind some and allow you to settle down. Let us know what you decide to do. I want what's best for you

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Thanks Agora i just talked to her, she agreed i can just come when the meal is ready and i can wear my headphones on the table cause i can't handle loud noises

[Agora1 in reply to Hidden]

I knew you and your mom could work it out.

I'm sooo happy for you

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Im less stressed out. Hopefully I will be able to keep my sanity next week

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You will do it and I'll be around to cheer you through.

[Celtic27]

Hi my friend please ask to see your doctor i presume youve got anxiety and depression if youve not seen anyone about it please do it sounds as your life is on hold because of your feelings ! Try breathing exercises and see about councilling until you do so you will be put on your life on hold ! After all thats said and done i wish you well and i hope you enjoy the party david

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Thank you. I am seeing a therapist