I guess you'd say I'm venting. Lately I've had the worse "feeling" ever! It is a total feeling of FEAR. All of a sudden I think about death, next it is like a bucket of HOT then a bucket of COLD water dumped on my head and washing over me. I am my own worse enemy! I cannot get control of this foolishness. I cannot blame my family for being sick of me. I'm sick of me!