No Hope Left For Me.

[_Reba_]

I have never ever felt like this in my entire 17 years of living. My anxiety is controlling my life and I cannot stop it anymore. I'm struggling to stick to a routine and I seem to have a panic attack whenever I try to do anything. I just seem to lie around, sleep and just repeat this.

The other night I went a whole day without eating and didn't come downstairs at all, even though family members came round for dinner. My parents just constantly say I'm 'moody' but I cannot tell them how I feel. I feel as if I'm going to breakdown and just snap. I cry whenever I'm alone and if I am around family members then I have to hold back the tears.

I'm having suicidal thoughts again and thought of self harming. I feel as if I'm losing my mind and I just want it to end.

[Agora1]

_Reba_ It's time now to reach out for professional help. When anxiety disrupts your life to the point you are at, it's time for a therapist's intervention. Not eating, lying around, sleeping and just repeating this pattern is not the life of a 17y.o. (or anyone else)

Sometimes the people around us don't truly understand the impact this is making on your life, your thoughts both mentally and physically.

It sounds like depression (which goes hand in hand w/anxiety) is taking over more and more. You need to let your parents know of the dark thoughts you are having. You are not just moody, you are truly hurting deep inside. Please let us know that you are safe and will tell your parents. x

[_Reba_ in reply to Agora1]

I've had professional help and I'm still having therapy but they are still deciding on what treatment I need, as I've been referred somewhere new.

It's not normal but I do not have the energy to snap out of it. People always said I was so positive but it's scary to say that I do not have any positive thoughts anymore. I truly feel that I am at the end and I'm not even that scared of it now.

[Agora1 in reply to _Reba_]

Reba, I'm glad their are professionals involved in trying to help you with treatment. The fact that you know this isn't normal for you shows me you are still in control enough to know you need help.

You are not at the end but only the beginning in getting the help you need. We can all get to that dark place at times where we don't have the strength or energy to "snap out of it". It doesn't mean to give up and not care what the ending might be. It's the time to allow the right people to make the right decisions for your health and well being.

Stay safe, stay positive and let others help you. x

[Daniellesparkles]

Awww it's going to be alright please try to tell your parents

We're here for you if you need to chat

Please be kind to yourself x

[_Reba_ in reply to Daniellesparkles]

Thank you ❤️

[Lynl]

NO SWEETIE, PLEASE DONT HARM YOURSELF, PLEASE TELL YOUR PARENTS , ALSO CALL THE SUICIDE HOTLINE !❤️I HAVE HAD ANXIETY MOST OF MY LIFE, THERE IS HELP OUT THERE , I PTOMISE THINGS WILL GET BETTER.! WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU, WE ARE ALL GOING THROUGH IT , LETS HELP EACHOTHER AND FEEL GOOD AGAIN

[_Reba_ in reply to Lynl]

Thank you ❤️ I will try and tell my parents today.

[Agora1 in reply to _Reba_]

Please Reba have a sincere sit down talk with them. x

[Lynl]

Thank You, and I'm praying for you, keep in touch let us know how it goes , I hope they respond well, and if they don't, please open up to someone else .

[tamka38]

I'm sorry to hear u having a tough time. Sending positive vibes to you with lots of hugs💕 hope u able to talk to your parents and I hope u feel better soon hun...I'm here just like everyone else if u need someone to talk to...I'm here for you too.

[_Reba_ in reply to tamka38]

Thank you ❤️ It means a lot. I'll post an update once I've spoken to my parents about how I'm feeling.

[Darryl Partner in reply to _Reba_]

Yes please update us. The idea of suicide is frightening to all of us

[Yellowmellow]

Hi Reba,

I have been in that place of depression and anxiety . It's hard because no one understands. Was lucky that the lord placed some people in my life to help me push. I do take Ativan , which I am slowly trying to ween off. It's not easy . I have involved myself in a prayer group and read the bible . Putting my trust in someone bigger than me has helped a lot. I pray that you get control of this quickly and remember our mind controls a lot of this. Hope this helped❤️

[_Reba_ in reply to Yellowmellow]

Thank you for the reply ❤️ I am thinking of going on medication as I'm struggling a lot lately.