It really is. Think about it. We cannot stay here. Why? Love-Sex-Death-God-Murder surrounds us all. We strive to move forward. The Pharos knew the deal...they shook the hand of builders. We scurry like mice. We push to feel...something...anything. The story begins around 4 or 5 for all of us. The story we remember anyway....the one that starts and stays with us. As we grow, characters and places are added to the story. As we grow, there are subtractions. At 45 my story has become smaller. I saw my Father die, some friends my age, some stores I loved closed, and some places are completely erased. Subtraction starts to come down the tracks. It's all a scam. Love is awesome! We are lucky to feel it, to be in it...to know it. BUT WHAT THEN.....if you are like me, all you wish is to go first...no feeding the pigeons on the bench alone like that old creepy guy people feed bad for.
I want to live to be 1000 and my wife and children to live even longer. Did you know reincarnation was in the Christian bible...and then taken out? True dat people as they say. I spent much time in the theological scholar space. I dig the plan of L Ron Hubbard. I want my own planet with my wife and kids...and not their husbands. Granted our girls are 4 and 6, one day they will want to marry someone and I won't like that person....I know it now. I want my own planet. I want to visit the planet that Tom Cruise will get. "It's RUBBISH" some of the masses scream. I suppose the body and blood of a human being is less strange? More popular....been around longer...I get it. 33 AD! Peter was our first Pope! We were the first. We gave the bible to the world. Then Luther was pissed, then Calvin...then there were only 63 books in the bible we gave them because they decided to remove some. Then came the come to church in jeans, worship band too... it's almost like not going to church....in fact...F It...we don't even have a domination...give us your cash. I've seen it all.
I remember my time in the sands of Iraq...those were some serious religious prayers. You have not lived on the door of death until you heard that come over the city at prayer time in the middle east. That's all for now...as you were.
Anxiety all the time?
Do you know any good anxiety self-help books?
Anxiety almost all my life 
Awful anxiety and panic all week
Health anxiety at an all time high! 
