So after about 4 weeks of being a shut in and not leaving my house i went to a party. Albeit it was my best friends son's first birthday party so not much social pressure but hey we all have to start somewhere right. I had some panic attacks that sprouted up but i was able to accept the fact that they would happen and would pass. I had fun though seeing my friends in person was nice. I don't know if my anxiety disorder will ever go away or if I'll ever feel like i used to but for the first time in a while i felt like i was living again. Sorry if i bored anyone i just felt like i should share.