Hi all, first post. I recently lost my job due to downsizing. Since then my anxiety has kicked into high gear. Mine comes during highly stresssful times and once things settle I goes away for the most part until the next major change. I am 50, and the sole supporter of my family. Now all the scary thoughts are running through my head and I am freaking out again. Will I find a job, will my anxiety keep me from getting a job, will we lose the house, what will people think, am I going to lose to much weight (no appetite), will I end up in the hospital, am I going to spiral out of control? I've been self medicating with beer and wine in the evenings just to have a little peace. But I know it's not a good solution and can make anxiety worse. So I'm going to work on cutting it out or down considerably. Now I'm getting afraid of the fear and struggle. I wake up every morning dreading the day and the struggle. I look forward to bed time when I can hide from this hell.