I'm Yessi and I'm 18 years old , back in 2012 I had a benign breast lump that got removed I believe I was 15 at the time, this changed me completely ... I've ended up in the ER over anxiety attacks many things scare me for example car rides because I think of car accidents, theme parks because I think of the worst case scenarios , I'm afraid to be happy because I'm afraid the world will come down on my shoulders and my happiness won't last. My doctor told me a while back that my breasts problems come from hormonal imbalance so I was put in birth control and it worked perfectly it got rid of two other breast lumps I had. My senior year of high school was probably the best year I've had since then because I didn't visit my doctor in that entire year because i felt so good , so strong and healthy and I think that being in the marching band distracted me from my anxiety. I graduated high school this summer and I haven't been very occupied so I have been so anxious thinking of breast cancer , thinking of the worst. I spend day and night checking my breasts everyday, literally. I'm back to being afraid of enjoying life, car rides, everything. This is driving me crazy and I'm afraid to fall into depression.