New to posting here, just wanted to see what other people think...
I have PTSD, Axienty, depression & a few other things going on. I'm good 90% of the time really happy to be that way. Sometimes I get flashbacks, I lose my temper I lose totally control & go mental.
So one of my best mates was over at my places with my housemates, talking about a bit about what led to my PTSD. I was fine until I was alone, cleaning up the mess after a dinner party, for no reason I lost control. I threw the knife that was in my hand at window in kithcneh that it has fucked it up you can see the impact where it made contact, plus the glass has split in a radial pattern from the point of impact & flew back like two meters, took a while to find the knife it was in a bin... The other part is that I studied martial arts for a while so I know how to handle knifes & weapons hence why it did so much damage.
How do i tell I explain the broken window, the fact i was then crying rolling around the floor for quite a long time, then the garden I'm sure they heard everything. Thus how do you explain a fucked door/window in the kitchen?
I have to go work in a few hours with people depending on me, how do I get better so this doesn't happen again.. ideas would be good.