I'm at war with myself 💀💀💀💀💀

[shens_96]

im so fed up with life and myself I can't sleep I can't eat I don't know what to do I hate everything around me, everyday is a struggle I'm over fighting

I need help

[melissamuniz]

Im sorry to hear that. Dont give up ive suffered with anxiety since i was 10. I feel like giving up sometimes to but we just have to try to understand to live with this n understand that we have nothibg wrong going on like my therapist said unfortunetly the physical symtoms will always be their n they are not going to go away you have to try to deal with the symtoms n that how it will get better. I defently knoe its supper hard i still now dont koe how to unferstand but i knoe someday we will get better n we will get threw this.

[shens_96 in reply to melissamuniz]

when I was 13 I was told I have depression & anxiety being the stubborn independent girl I am I refused to take medicashion and to deal with it myself. fighting every day I had control over the evil inside of me always have through all the hurt and bad in my life I had a safe lock on it. now I'm older and much more weaker it's like my strength has been torn I'm just so dead.

I tell myself I can do it I can fight it but I feel in myself I cant I hate feeling like this because it's not me I'm not this person I feel I am and I can't handle fighting with myself. I'm stuck in the middle of a war with myself I need help this time and I need it now. I'm trying so hard but everything around me seems so dark I'm homless and I have been for years I just won't my own place so I can be at rest with my own space.

I trust no one everyone has let me down my head an heart are broken I have no family I have nothing. but I see my future an where I want to be my dream is my only hope.

I know I'll get to where I want to be one day but at the moment my depression an anxiety have took a massive turn on me its hit hard an I can't control it there is no more running the race is over and I need to face that I'm in last place. I just need help I can't do it on my own any more.

drugs and drinking

give me happyniess with out them I'm laying on the floor crying wanting it all to end so what do you do you drink an toke a little more least for a bit I'm not so sad. but really when it wears off I'm back to where I started.

im just one lost little girl who needs a place to call home

[chanel93]

Hello. I hope you are alright! You can get through this, I use to have an hard.time with cutting myself as well I saw a therapist while I was in high school and it still continued. I started to write in my journal and found that helped me. Medication has really helped me and I hope you find something that will help. Please remember that you are not alone and you will survive this! Please stay strong.

[Sandraann21]

Hi Shens, I could of easily written what you have put, becasuse that's exactly the way I feel everyday, Iv been like this since January and don't know how much more I can take, I just can't go on like this as you say

[shens_96 in reply to Sandraann21]

dream big! Dreams catch me when I fall. believe in yourself. even though that devil fools you keep fighting! worry about yourself no one else but yourself!! even though you have a heart an worry to much about others relaise that it's time you save yourself before it's to late an those who truly love you will be there at the end when your that diamond you want to be.

I know it's hard to think positive & to stay strong but Im fighting with my angle & my devil my heads stuck in the middle left,right devil, angle.. the hole I'm in doesn't have any way out but I can't just stay down here an rot away I need to find away out. Alice fell down a hole that turnt into a wonderland but she didn't just fall once she fell down a few times to realise the hole is lessons and blessing of some sort you just have to find it with in.

Im giving advice that I try tell myself everyday but what I feel inside is a different story but I tell you an feel so confident that you are going to shine so bright and all these devils will go an become sun flowers. 🌻

I keep telling myself what if I regain myself, Get my strength back just for something or someone to push me back down again.

I have never felt so numb and dead in myself before the way I have lately but I've came to realise if I have made it this far I may have nothing to show I may be lonely and depressed, everyone thinks I'm drug fucked an crazy. when really i was when you are born you don't fit in you where born to help create a new one. 💛💛💛💛

[Spomales]

May God bless you all ... Pray and continue praying cry your soul and heart out to God .. He will respond show him your sincerity and that he can only help you over come all those burdens that the enemy is putting upon you all he is there let him take that Birden for you let him take control and mold you to his ways ask him to mold you and to take control of your life keep pray never lose your faith in him even at your lowest point he is there next to waiting for you to give yourself to him and only him ... Go to church have them pray for you he will take care of the rest all you need to do is to take that first step .. The people there will also help you out make sure to get the prayers going even if you need to talk to God for hours and hours ... Hope your feeling. Better and he will help you overcome all your worries .. God bless you all always and will keep everyone in prayers ..

[rinnifer]

Hi all, Firstly may I say I am sorry you are all going through a reallt difficult time, my daughter has had a tough few years dealing with Anxiety and depression and cutting herself but with support from counselling, good friends and I believe prayer she is a different person much more confident and in a Apprentiship doing well. I have also had a few set backs been ill for quite a few years, I have had Anxiety and Depression, maybe not to the extent of some, but I have had a few probs, with Thyroid ,ops ,tumors on parathyroids and a brain tumor causing Cushings disease, thankfully through myy faith in God and prayer I am very certain he has been with me through it all, even now 4 months after surgery Im still recovering and cant do a hole lot and feeling cr*p and often no energy to move! its easy to drift into depression but I pray every day even just for 5 mins and is such a strength and help. I truly hope you will all find support and strength, and may I agree with spomales above that you might ask God first , lots of love xx

[steadfast66]

You are not alone. You are not going crazy. There is a way to deal with anxiety. See a good therapist who will not put you on medicine immediately. Read books on anxiety. Google it and read the treatment other than pills. Mullein tea aid sleep but also lower the blood pressure so you have to be careful not to drank it every night. Visit the a nutrient store and ask for something for anxiety. Deep breathing is good. Recognizing what is causing your anxiety helps tremendously. Don't give up. Praying for you, Shens.