Getting by...

[shadow45]

Hello. I recently found out through therapy that I have a neurotic personality.. Which sums up very well how I have been feeling most of my life. I was a little unhappy to be told this news.. But when I had time to think about it I came to understand how this could be true. Its not my whole personality.. but a great deal of my thought process has dealt in negativity and futility of life in general.

[easedale]

hi this sounds interesting. negativity and futility I can relate to. did they offer help how to deal with this. do u mind sharing with me how. x

[shadow45 in reply to easedale]

Well therapy and meds are one way..... Once one gets to a certain age in life and we discover that our whole life has been the exact opposite of what we truly wanted for ourselves, its hard to make the turn around... It all reverts back to childhood and parenting... If we had crappy parents who were ill equipped themselves in their own personality makeup... then we are in trouble right away... These traits become either ingrained in the child or in my case I fought against the way I was brought up. I always had an issue with how I was being treated. Which in the long run makes one question everything that is going on in the world. I become a sceptic of the world I saw and was a part of.. Leading to a less than positive approach to my problems as an adult.

[easedale]

thank you. am hoping to change my out look thro cbt therapy. when things are going ok around me I cope but when things go wrong I worry too much. part of me thinks if I havnt managed to sort myself out at 58 may b I never will. at the moment coping looks pretty good. hope im beginning to climb out black hole.

best wishes and progress x

[shadow45 in reply to easedale]

Try to think of your life as a play... Now your into the third act and you can write your own script.. good luck much love steve

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Hi Steve,

It's good to hear you are going for some therapy for your illness. I do hope you gain some benefit, and glad your getting by.

Eunice xx