I came up with a realization why my ex broke up with me. I'm so fat and ugly that he cheated on me with another girl in a different state. That's how ugly and fat I am. That he literally couldn't stand being with me that he wanted a escape out. Then now I have a FWB whose really attractive and I'm to fat and ugly to be with him at all so I suggested FWB. Now no how much I like him it won't matter bc he won't feel the same bc I'm to fat and ugly. He will find another girl whose prettier and skinner than me and be with her bc that's his type. Not a fat ugly girl like me. In my head all I hear is "ur so fat and ugly!" "Ur so fat and ugly that ur ex cheated on u with another girl" you'll always be alone. No one will want u. No one will ever want someone so ugly and fat. That's all I hear in my head. I cut myself bc my body is so disgusting and my face is so ugly that no one will want me so who cares. I just want to be skinny and pretty. I just wanted to get that off my chest. Sorry about the long paragraph.