I have ocd and anxiety but lately my health anxiety is through the ceiling. I've recently started dating my boyfriend of two months now and we have sex but my health anxiety is driving me nuts saying that I have HIV. He's been tested and so have I. We both are clean but I'm just afraid. I have things going through my head saying "what if he's lying?!" "What if he tested to early?!" "What if I tested to early?!" Then I get symptoms as if it's early signs of HIV. I my throat hurts, my lymph nodes feels swollen, me head hurts sometimes, I get really anxious and nervous when I have these symptoms. Then I say "he got tested, he's good." "He has two kids and they don't have it." "He hasn't had sex since November." Then I start watching tv and I see a commercial about getting tested and I watch a tv show and they make a joke or comment about HIV then I freak and say "OMG IF THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT HIV THEN THAT MEANS I HAVE IT! ITS A SIGN!" I just freak and ask my boyfriend when he got tested and where, how, what test he got checked for. Then I go online and it makes things worse! Idk what to do. I don't want to ruin my relationship bc of my ocd and health anxiety. That's what happen with my old relationship. Sorry for the long paragraph.