I haven't posted again since last month when I started to think about the possibility of stress and depression being a problem for me. Was fine over Xmas probably because of the routines being broken and not being at work, but day before school started (I'm a teacher) I started having sleepless nights again and woke up on last day of the holiday ill. Have been physically under the weather since, feeling coldy, and have ended up taking the last 2 days off work which I rarely do. Time off work stresses me out further, knowing that I'm putting other staff members in a more difficult position and that I'm going to have to catch up on the work I've missed. Then today I received an email from my headteacher with a performance review which comes across as negative due to very small area for strengths and lots if 'areas for development'. Now I know that my headteacher is very supportive and that it would not be intended in this way but as I've received it during time off I've taken it as extra pressure to be at work tomorrow to get on with all these things I'm not good enough at.
Really just needed to get all this off my chest so I might be able to get some sleep tonight and go to work in the morning
Apologies for any typing errors, I'm typing on a phone and am tired!