For about 2 years now iv been having episodes of worring about a nuclear attack. Iv at times believed that iv herd air raid sirens, iv woken in cold sweats to the belife that the uk was under attack.
Iv had worry before about ghosts and demons from a younger age, mostly taking me hours to get to sleep.
I still struggle to sleep now but takes me less time. Having relaxing music on helps but not a great lot.
Iv lost a job before for worrying too much. I wont go into it.
I have intrests in nuclear power and weapons because i find them intreging and it seems that my worries turned to that when my intrest first arrived.
Its gotten to the point now that i have a space blanket set next to my bed, tinned food stocked, and an action plan. Iv looked at where i can hide for the inital blast and what cloths to wear.