Never-ending torture.

[MuffinChops]

As you know, my younger sister went to CAMHS yesterday, and came home in tears over what her therapist said, snotty cow. Sister is downstairs roaring again now, and said in front of the whole family earlier that she 'can't' promise she won't kill herself, that certainly hasn't gone down well! She has already attempted suicide once, and is saying she's going to do it again, she's only 14! I think she's anorexic too, she hardly eats and always complains about how fat she is, she said this morning that she was hungry but didn't want to eat because it has been an entire day since she last ate, she described it as 'doing well'.

I sat there and gritted my teeth, I can't have a go at her, and I can't agree with my mum that it's 'stupid', because I am exactly the same... My sister has not got any of her mental issues from me or the family, because I never talk about my problems, I find it awkward talking to her in general, besides touchy stuff...

I feel ANOTHER family crisis, we've tried so hard to get by, just to live, with me, my sister and my mum all attempting suicide since Christmas, I feel that atmosphere coming back again. I am so worried, and feeling dreadfully sorry for my mum, as she has to cope with it all, I feel helpless, and normally stay out of whatever problems my sister faces. She is a tricky character, she is an absolute bitch to say the least, always causing arguments and wanting her way, bullying my mum, being ungrateful etc... She hasn't been to school for 8 months, and is not intending on going back, she's back in to the same mess as last time, yet she can't get help from CAMHS or the GP. Neither can I...

I am appalled with the NHS's protocol, leaving kids to suffer, and not offering their parents support. Even social services pushed my mum to the sidelines and only 'helped' my sister, my mum needs all the support she can get right now, without her, we'd be nothing! I want to smack my sister in the face sometimes, I'm sure she does and says things just to be an utter brat, she's very controlling, but I do think there are underlying issues, but CAMHS just don't know what... It's going to be a very depressing counselling session for me tomorrow, this exact situation me and my family are facing AGAIN, is what sent us all into turmoil in the first place!

She's still crying, I can hear her now. My poor mum.

[Jeffju]

I don't know the situation in the UK very well as I live in NZ but there must be some sort of crisis team that should be able to help.your family. Is there any counsellor at school that could help you. Maybe there is a helpline. I really feel so sad for you and your family and feel there must be some help out there for you. Stay strong and I know that's hard but you all need each other at the present time. Sending love and hugs. Sorry I can't be of much help but there are always great people on here ready to help so keep on blogging,Good luck. xx

[henige]

Is there any way you can get group counselling, as from what I read in your mail there are issues that have to come out in the open through counselling. All issues will have to be spoken of, as this is one of the ways that the three of you together can hear first hand what is going on.

I truly feel for you as a family. Hope things improve xx