As I sit here at my desk in my home office I have tears pooling up in my eyes. Life has been extra cruel lately. I have so much to be thankful for but it's hard to focus on the good when theres so many challenges. Anxiety and depression have been teaming up for an assault on my mental and physical health. Heres life in a nutshell:
-Mom was diagnosed with vascular dementia, almost died and is not in a dementia care home
-I have sciatica pain and a mild heart condition
-The business I was planning on buying out shut down after an old partner made decisions that led to failure and opened the business and me (as well as themselves) up to legal action and I have tax and credit card debt from those actions that I can't pay
-A past client of the business is causing legal trouble for me based on the inaction of my old partner
-My startup business never took off
-The job I have pays 50% less than I was previously making
-My son was falsely accused of domestic violence by an ex fiance. He beat the charge but had accumulated a large attorney bill to do so and I'm not in a position to help him pay the bill
-I have business "friends" that have stopped talking to me because of the business mess
-I have church "friends" that have stopped talking to me
Good things that I try to remind myself of:
-My wife loves me and I love her
-I have two healthy sons that are independent and hard working, good people
-My new church family is proving to be supportive
- I may have found a new career that has potential
Looking forward in participating in this community!