struggling today

[Biking1500yay]

I’m really having a hard time today. Some big work deadlines and I just can’t focus at all. Feeling knotted up with fear and pain and just want to go back to bed. Feeling like I have to quit my job but that will bring more anxiety due to financial situation. Thanks for listening.

[optimismrus]

Thanks for sharing. We are good listeners. I'm sorry you're facing tough decisions. Feel safe to tell us more about yourself. 🥰

[Biking1500yay in reply to optimismrus]

Thank you! A bit more ... I have struggled with anxiety and depression for much of my life, I think, though not really diagnosed until a few years ago when I really hit bottom following my divorce. I have been on and off meds - currently off but seeing doc today to consider restarting. It just feels like life is so much harder for me than for most people I know (though of course they may struggle privately, as we probably all do to some extent). I wish I could just relax and enjoy things more but for some reason I just can't. Everything feels like such an effort.

[optimismrus in reply to Biking1500yay]

Hopefully the meds will give you some relief. I know the feeling of having to try so hard just to get thru the day. Depression is a mental illness. For some it's temporary. For a lot of us here, it's chronic. When I accepted that I would need to manage my depression like someone who manages Diabetes, I was able to work with a therapist to learn what my triggers were. It wasn't easy but now I can ward off falling into the deep dark holes. The antidepressants have helped me and I'm grateful for them. You can grow stronger thru this process. 🥰

[gajh]

Hello and Welcome. There is a lot of support available here. I am glad you have joined us.

[Biking1500yay in reply to gajh]

Thanks so much. So glad to be here.

[catsrock]

I'm glad you posted. How are you doing today? We all get it and have felt the same. I think jobs are more difficult for those of us who struggle with depression and anxiety as it's hard to manage our feelings when we feel overwhelmed at work - at least for me it is!

[Biking1500yay in reply to catsrock]

Doing better today, thanks. My job is always such a source of stress and sometimes it just feels unmanageable. It's partly the job itself but I believe it's mostly my anxiety/depression at work. Everything is magnified x100

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start to do 5 min and take a break and then do 10 min and take another 5 min break and keep going

the trick is to start it and just make rough notes and fill in detailed notes later

just do and once you get into it you will be ok

other people have done it and you can do it

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