Struggling today

[ashleybakerr01]

I'm really struggling to eat anything other than potatoes lately...idk I'm just scared to eat most foods. I'm scared of choking so bad to the point I refuse anything else. I know it's not healthy...but I just can't seem to shake this fear right now. I feel ashamed 😔. My dad keeps going on I should have known you wouldn't eat. And it just makes me worse...He doesn't understand 😭

[Hidden]

A couple of suggestions. Google the foods that are possibly choking hazards an avoid them. Also cut up your food to very tiny pieces. It's a shame that he doesn't understand.

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to Hidden]

I stick to soft foods to feel comfortable

[IncognitoC]

Is there a reason why you think that about all food other than potatoes?

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to IncognitoC]

I choked before and I'm just afraid of foods that aren't soft

[IncognitoC in reply to ashleybakerr01]

That’s a fairly understandable reason, you will get through this and eventually be able to eat and enjoy all the food that you have loved before.

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to IncognitoC]

I appreciate it. I'm slowly doing ok. If it helps, I just pushed to some spaghetti, which is what I choked on . So I'm kinda proud of that 😀

[IncognitoC in reply to ashleybakerr01]

Well done for this! You have eaten the one thing that is your nemesis and you should be extremely proud of yourself.

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to IncognitoC]

Thank youu so much

[IncognitoC in reply to ashleybakerr01]

I have been thinking about when you said that your dad doesn’t understand what you’re going through. Is that more of a case that he is worried that you’re not eating enough rather than he doesn’t understand?

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to IncognitoC]

Probably a mixture of both. I know he cares that I'm not and doesn't know how to go about it. But he also says stuff like it's simple just eat and chew. I know it is ..it's just the fear and everything taking over me that makes me overwhelmed to the point I cry when I'm around food and stuff sometimesIt makes me feel ridiculous 😔

[IncognitoC in reply to ashleybakerr01]

It certainly seems like he’s worried but doesn’t know how to deal with it. And that’s totally understandable because a lot of people don’t know how to handle the different types of mental health issues. Keep trying different forms of food and proving yourself that you can do it. Your dad will see that you are doing it and he will soon understand that you’re doing everything you can.

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to IncognitoC]

They see I'm doing way better than a year ago. I wasn't eating, just drinking and got reslly tiny and sick. I'm finally gaining and here and there I'll eat other stuff.

[IncognitoC in reply to ashleybakerr01]

Be proud of yourself in every little thing that you accomplish and overcome.

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to IncognitoC]

I force myself to try other things again at times

[Swilly97]

Hi Ashleybakerr01. I'm so sorry that you're struggling. I have some similar fears to yours too. It gets better and you're not alone.

Virtual hugggggggggg

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to Swilly97]

Thank you

[Blue-1234]

It's hard for people to understand our problems. Maybe you should get a therapist. If you don't have one. Sometimes there to only person who seems to understand.

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to Blue-1234]

I used to have one. But she didn't work out. And the guy I had, he mocked me. So I stopped going all together 🫤

[lauralidia]

Have you looked into Eating Disorders Anonymous?There are many meetings on zoom and some in person.Also lots of helpful information about restricting/anorexia.Is helpful to find your people that understand you.You are not alone❤️

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to lauralidia]

No. I didn't know this was a thing. Thank you so much for this