Panic vent

[PeaceNeed]

Im having another anxiety filled morning. I just stifled crying. Cant physically get out of bed Im so wound up.I wanna scream. Im so paranoid about everything I cant think straight.

7 years of this how am I still here.

[gajh]

I am so sorry do you want to talk about it?

[PeaceNeed in reply to gajh]

Where to even start? Every morn. Toxix anciety and depression....utter despair.

[gajh in reply to PeaceNeed]

Have you found any coping skills that help at all? Does anything make you feel better?

[PeaceNeed in reply to gajh]

Tried meditation , breathing , drugs. Therapists dont seem to help had several.Last 7 yrs been really beaten up. Had no time to heal.

Unreallenting pain I'd cry more but I don't want to frighten neighbors.

[gajh in reply to PeaceNeed]

It sounds like you have tried so much. How about distractions? Music, movies, reading anything to take your mind off of things.

[PeaceNeed]

Use those when Im calmer than I am now. Not functioning well. Hard to think.

[jbjacksoncfc]

i'm so sorry to hear you are struggling so much right now! if you think of anything i can do to help you please dont hesitate to say so. for now, i offer two suggestions that have helped me very much sometimes when i've felt like you're describing. 1) just BREATHE. you mentioned that you've "tried .... breathing" but i see & hear so much about all these different breathing techniques and exercises & for me personally they usually just stress me out, trying to figure out how to do it "right" and whether it's working and so on. the bottom line, however, is that there are a few very basic things that every single human person ever in existence does and needs and one of them is AIR. so that's all. try your very best to quiet everything else going on in your head (and please believe i know how very VERY hard that can be!) and just BREATHE. in, and then out. in whatever way and for however long it takes until you feel even the slightest relief from all the other. another thing along this same line is WATER. take a sip, chug a glass, whatever feels right for you. it's a basic human need, and it's easy to do in any place situation whatever, and it can only help and not hurt you in any way.

2) once you've breathed and hydrated, when you're ready, just take the next step forward. no matter how small, whatever it is for you in that moment, ANY tiny positive action. life in general and especially with anxiety, depression, etc. is/ can be SO very overwhelming. the "staircase" or "journey" looks & feels daunting and paralyzing. but ONE STEP is better than nothing. and so often it can help you in small important ways that you dont even consciously realize. one step can give you a direction instead of feeling frozen or stuck and surrounded. one step breaks the inertia of inaction and gives you a bit of momentum to grow on. and one step very rarely risks causing more harm than good in the long run. if it turns out it's the "wrong" direction for you, or a "mistake", it's only been one step, and it's relatively easy to turn it around & "fix it".

sorry i wrote so much, i hope some part of it can help & encourage you though

[PeaceNeed in reply to jbjacksoncfc]

I deeply appreciate your effort. Thank you.

[LivingInTheDark]

You are still here because under all that pain and anxiety and frustration lies strength. One moment at a time, one thing at a time and one day at a time. The negativity is a beast when it starves us of our peace.

[PeaceNeed in reply to LivingInTheDark]

I made a painting of the beast in my head. If i can post it here i will