Update on how this night went: couldn't sleep

[No_Longer_Human]

I was having a nightmare about trying to get my dad's place fixed and getting robbed and everyone blaming me and I woke up and i heard mom having a nightmare cursing at someone in her sleep "monsters, trashes". In bulgarian it's worse. I thought she was talking to dad and his new wife. Or even to me and sis. I was terrified. I feel bad i didn't take quetiapine yesterday but I'm scared I'm getting dependent to one more med. I can't sleep without it. With it i can't wake up or stop eating. I was so sleepy before it all happened yesterday and I still couldn't sleep. I was waiting for some water to warm so i can get a shower. Then i was waiting for some water to boil for mom in the morning. She woke up and i got scared and went to sleep. She was a bit on her phone, i was thinking to fall asleep. Then i briefly fell asleep and had the nightmare and i woke up from fear and heard her roaring at someone and then growling "monsters, trashes" and i thought the worst. Still can't fall back asleep but i don't want to take quetiapine in the morning. Took some melatonin, hope it works. My belly hurts a lot and i can't get comfortable. I need to run and have someone hug me till i calm down. I'm scared as hell

[KrierandRosie]

Melatonin works most of the time. Sometimes I still can’t sleep. It is depressing and ruins the next day. It’s a constant struggle, especially with anxiety and depression added to it. One day at a time.

[No_Longer_Human in reply to KrierandRosie]

It is. Even melatonin stopped working