Who are true friends

[Tulip2407]

Is it really difficult to find good friends. Since school time I was always part of good friend circle but never had one who was close and was there in all ups and down. Over the period of time there are still few I'm in contact with but not like I could pour my heart out. And in social circles I have family friends who are more like good chit chat friends but never like who will understand me. It happened often that I try to call one of them for coffee or shopping she is always with excuses. We all work and I understand we have kids to look after but she is always keeping pushing any plans that I ask for. Today also she did the same and this give me an anxiety and I really want to question what is the problem ? Then I keep thinking about how she treated me and always decide not to ask next time but I end up again proposing plans to her. She is good talks nicely on call but she has this alpha personality where she cannot be wrong, any kind of discussion is like she have this strong opinion to push back. I want to be friends as we are part of same social circle but I really crave to tell her that what she is doing or behave is not right. I'm venting here hoping I just feel better and stop thinking about her and way she treat me.

[gajh]

Do you feel any better after venting? My only friends are the friends I have made here online. I know it is not the same as having friends in real life, but it has been so beneficial for me. Always someone to talk openly with.

[Tulip2407 in reply to gajh]

I feel better after writing here. But there are days when u go down and think about loneliness surrounding you. I try to watch TV or go out as well.