ouch! rain stryder

[RainStryder]

anxiety has infiltrated every aspect of my life: on top of anxiety, i have major depression (more orless in control), ptsd (raging) and did (doing pop-up visits).

my life is further complicated by hand surgery on august 8th and exploratoy cancer surgery on

august 21st (which may turn into a more complicated surgery).

my thoughts are swinging from one point to another so quickly, i don't even know whay a clear

thought is. my anxiety med makes me blank out unpredictabely so i have to stop it - my choice.

i keep telling myself " i will not fear" and " god won' t send me more than i can handle".

[Willow2022]

Hey Rain… you are going through a lot. I read your other post as well and I am glad you landed here.

Anxiety and depression suck. Big time. I have my depression mostly under control so I am currently working on anxiety. Here is something new I have tried:

Sitting with anxiety. Sitting with that sensation of rapid heartbeat or lump in my throat or knot in my stomach. Sit with it, acknowledge it and let it go. I don’t try and fight it anymore. I see it, give it a look and let it go. So far, it has helped.

This type of thinking is from a book sometimes recommended on here by members. If you want to title, let me know. I don’t want you to feel like I am a book salesman 🫤.

It’s did though because for several years my therapist tried to get me to do this but she used other words and methods that just didn’t click. Now it makes sense to me.

[RainStryder in reply to Willow2022]

Thanks, Willow. I always try to blot out my anxiety by doing something.I think I'll.give sitting with it a try. I might even ask it what's up.

[Willow2022 in reply to RainStryder]

If you ask your anxiety What’s Up and it answers, please let me know… 😁

[RainStryder]

This is Rain Stryder. I am actually in the middle of a "What's Up" conversation with myself.What I'm learning is that I'm scared, feel overwhelmed and can't handle what's up on my own.

This Wednesday, 8/8, I am having surgery on my left hand-my dominant hand. I have an

abnormal mass on my right ovary. On 8/21, I'm having surgery. My surgeon thinks it might

be cancer.. But, I am not alone with all this. I now live in a new senior residence where the

staff are more supportive than any I've encountered before. I broke my rule about

doing things alone. "What's Up" can also e a conversatikn about your achievements and

your good lkjnts