I know that my life will end by my own hand unless something crazy happens, and I’m ok with that. I’m content. Problem is I’ve been getting really down in the evenings because of loneliness. I miss having a woman to connect with. I don’t mean just physically, but even just to talk to. It’s not something I can figure out how to fix. I’m too screwed up to actually try to meet people. And I’m incapable of maintaining a friendship if I have to make contact first.
Honestly I think I’m here hoping to find people to talk to and maybe build a friendship.
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Hi Godless, I have some good news: you are in the right place. I’m new to this site and I’ve found more compassion, encouragement, and empathy here in less than a month than I have found elsewhere before that. There’s something beautiful about having a shared experience. We learn to listen and to care for one another. I’m sure you’ll make lots of friends here, just give this amazing group of people some time and they’ll bless your life
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Welcome to the hospital. We are all broken people here to support each other. I'm curious about your name "Godless"? What made you decide to go with that?
Current evidence suggests all matter and energy came from the Big Bang of the initial singularity. Of course I’m not theoretical physicist or cosmologist.
I understand the point of your asking, but your questions have nothing to do with atheism. Just because someone lacks a belief in a god doesn’t mean they’ll give you the same answers I will/have. I’m more scientifically minded than others may be.
I don’t feel I chose it. I was atheist before I knew there was a term for it, because I never believed in a god. I wasn’t raised atheist; my mom was Seventh Day Adventist, but never went to church. I did go a couple times with cousins that I can remember, but I didn’t understand why. It just wasn’t really a part of my life.
I was engaged to a Catholic girl, I have an Irish sounding first name, I was "grilled" by her family in front of her house, about 2 minutes in, I went 'brain dead' , what was I doing here, about beliefs I was Presbyterian, I don't love her, what are they talking about, my Presbyterian belief 🙄, I am living in Northern Ireland, this was mid 1970's, a distinct turning point, ironically I became a genealogist so have lost count the number of churches I've been through and the number of graveyards I've listed, been a firm agnostic over 40 years👌
That's an interesting back story. Not choosing to be an atheist is a curious concept - like you were born with it or it's a state of being. As an atheist, do you believe that "good" and "evil" are merely social constructs subject to the present morals of the community you may be part of?
I don’t believe in “good” and “evil”. Life’s a bit more gray than that, but I do believe there is a moral subjectivity depending on what society you’re part of.
I appreciate your candor. Let's unpack that a bit with an extreme example. With morals being subjective, if one particular society accepts that stockpiling nuclear weapons and dropping them on other societies in order to destroy them is cool, but yet another society believes that behavior is not good, is there any way to tell which one of those societies has the correct view? Probably not, because morals are subjective, correct?
I’m not good at answering hypothetical questions, or moral/philosophical ones. Part of the problem is I feel I don’t have enough information to answer properly.
Though I understand that the point of this scenario is to show that without an objective morality these kind of things can happen, and why should anyone of us say it’s wrong. That’s why objective morality must come from a god. However with the thousands of gods worshipped though out history, who’s to say which one we should follow.
In light of that answer, is it fair to say that a more honest answer to the question of what started the big bang is "I'm not sure, but I know it was not a single god?"
I did say “I don’t know. No one does” earlier. It wouldn’t be honest to say “I know it was not a single god” because I can’t possibly know that. Though I do think it to be extremely unlikely.
What’s the point of living with nothing worth living for? I know life is what you make it, and I’ve made it bad. Much of my own doing, willfully or not. It’s ok though, there are far worse things than dying.
I've asked you some rather direct questions and you have been gracious to answer them. It's safe to say that you are not an atheist, but agnostic. And if so, somewhere in your mind you are holding out hope that there is a purpose to life, and we are not just a bundle of molecules that were put together by mere happenstance. Why do you say you've made your life bad? Someone who truly believes that all that exists is merely an accident with no Creator behind it would say there is no such thing as bad - our thoughts and behaviors are merely a product of random selection and there is no objective truth to make a measurement of good or bad. I know with all my heart that your life has meaning and purpose. Do you want to keep going with this conversation?
I have no problem continuing the conversation, but you’re wrong on a few points. I am an atheist, because I don’t believe in a god. If you want to go a bit more precise, I’m considered an agnostic atheist vs a gnostic atheist. Gnostic relates to knowledge. I have no knowledge of the existence of a god one way or the other. Theism deals with belief. You believe so you’re a theist, I don’t so I’m atheist.
I always find it funny how people think that without a god nothing should matter to those who don’t believe. When the truth is many atheists have a more purposeful life because it’s the only one they have. Just because I don’t see a purpose to my life doesn’t mean others are the same.
I’ll be 42 in a month and live at home with my 68yr old mother. I’m on disability and don’t work. All I do is sit around and watch tv or play video games.
Nope. I’m on disability for depression and Tourette’s. I could work if I felt like it. There are a couple reasons I don’t.
1) working while collecting SSI can be a hassle because the rules.
2) applying for work causes me stress and worsens my depression. The only work I ever had was because of my mom and I only ever did seasonal work.
So now I just prefer to keep my life simpler. I may not be happy or see a future for myself, but I’m mostly content. For now I live my shitty life waiting for something to happen or I get so so stressed I take my life.
I am so sorry that you are dealing with this. It cannot be easy. Do you ever consider what will happen to you after you die? Do you think that death is final and your problems will be over?
Your life is too precious to end prematurely. The suffering you are experiencing reminds me of Matthew 11:28-29: "Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." My prayer is that God will reveal Himself to you and that He will give you peace that surpasses all understanding.
Quite agree, what I believe is probably in the same vein as yourself, nothing to do with a "super human being" or god as is defined by the Oxford English Dictionary, I am an agnostic!
hey 👋🏻 I read your post and thought to myself “I didn’t post anything recently, did I?”. I can totally relate… message me if you ever want/need to talk ❤️
Like yourself I'm content in what I believe in, not scared to die, but I attempted suicide last month, more out of pure frustration, I am terminally ill, on the edge, thought a pill overdose would push me over the edge, did not solve anything, like yourself disabled, I'm lonely have been living by myself over 20 years, constricted by pure lack of transport and finance, I used to sit in bed having theological arguments with myself about belief and etc, etc, realising "religion" did not fit in my life, I became more cut off from everybody, as living in Northern Ireland "religion" is such a mainstay of general society, but became very apt of putting my way of thinking and belief thus more staunch in my particular belief. I actually thrived on it, liked being the odd one out, as people put me in a "weird" category, had been for decades, but now I need to spread out, dementia just around the corner, I have not had a holiday in 10 years, being retired now outliving or losing contact with former friends, and still they try to capture my "soul"🙄 I'm in the process of downsizing, [I foresaw the process of moving and my general terminal health, MIGHT be a little bit too much 🙄?] My 'converted' sister is not really helping matters, I luv her a lot, but she does go on about her "church" meetings just a little bit too much😖
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