It hurts

[Jrick34]

It hurts....why does it hurt so bad? Why cant we just not have anxiety? It came out of nowhere today and iam now iam sitting in Walmart parking lot in tears. Why? I haven't done anything wrong. I just want to be happy guys but tears wont stop falling. I feel like hypocrite; always trying to encourage people but iam sitting here falling into despair. Iam so sorry guys.

[Hidden]

You dont have to be sorry, we understand. Just put on one of your favorite songs and let it out my friend.

its okay to feel lost sometimes. i found its better not to fight the crying and just to let the tears wash away some of that pain inside. and your encouragement is always appreciated. It makes me smile when i see you’re asking about the dinner menu and being so kind.

and youre not a hypocrite, you’re a kind person I often wish i could encourage myself the way i do others, but when it comes to me i fall short.

[Jrick34 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for kind words. It's not easy sometimes but we have to stay encouraging each other. Thanks for being a friend

[Hidden in reply to Jrick34]

Yeah there’s always days that just don’t go as planned, and even when they do these illnesses can sneak their way in. You’re words have inspired me a few times, even if I didnt end up replying on those days, so being a friend is the least i could do

[Jrick34 in reply to Hidden]

Being a friend means alot to me and just doing that makes things better. We all met for a reason.

[Hidden in reply to Jrick34]

i'm glad it helps and I feel the same way. I definitely agree we found this place for a reason, the support i find and give was hard to find in the world around me, and a few weeks ago I stumbled upon this place.

[All_alone]

I'm sorry your hurting so much right now. I've been in tears most of the day myself. About two months ago I pulled into the old kmart parking lot and just cried. I have not talked to anyone today except the server at the restaurant and the walmart cashier. I also hate feeling like this.....

[Jrick34 in reply to All_alone]

I know; wish I could just snap my fingers to take it from all of us. But in the meantime iam always here if you need me friend. No matter what iam going through

[All_alone in reply to Jrick34]

So do I my friend. I've been pretty quiet on here the last few days because I feel maybe I have no reason to post because It will not change anything. But getting it out can help. I'm just SO TIRED.....

[maslater]

I’m so sorry it hit you so hard. I understand how that feels. Are you taking any medication to help?

[Jrick34 in reply to maslater]

Thank you and not at the moment. Going to the doc next week. Just wanna be able to smile and not think something is wrong with it

[sweetiepye]

Anxiety is just a symptom of what is really bothering you. It doesn't come out of nowhere it comes out. Like a rash. When you learn the limitations of your anxiety it won't have so much power over you. What ever you are doing you can continue to do with anxiety. It makes you uncomfortable but it doesn't hurt you. No one deserves this, but remember it isn't permanent. You help so many people on site , you don't have to be perfect to do that. We are happy you are here. Pam

[Jrick34 in reply to sweetiepye]

Your wisdom is always wanted. Thank you so much; seeing it being explained makes me see it clearer

[sweetiepye in reply to Jrick34]

I hope you feel stronger soon. I want you to know that this is not bigger than you are. In the end you will conquer it.

[Agora1]

Hi Jrick34, I live and breathe this support forum but if you think for a moment

that I don't cry, you'd be very wrong. Our emotions run high with anxiety. People

with anxiety carry their hearts on their sleeve. They are the kindest and most caring

human beings around. And that's why it hurts so much. We feel for ourselves

and others and those emotions have no where to go. Crying helps because it is

a release but moving our muscles and re-focusing on things that are thought

provoking can help in releasing those feelings of dread as well.

I'm glad you reach out to us. This is your safe place to come where you are

understood and can find comfort. There may not be a magic wand to make

it instantly go away but there is a key that you will find one day Jrick and things

will change for you. I believe that because it happened for me. xx

[Jrick34 in reply to Agora1]

You've been here since day 1 for me and I cant tell you how much it means. This group has helped in ways I'd never imagine. Thank you so much

[sweetiepye in reply to Agora1]

So well said Agora.

[Dolphin14]

Tears are ok. Just let them flow. It is cleansing in a way. I cried so much over the last couple years I often wondered if it would ever stop. I also wondered where it all came from, it was constant.

I'm now in a new med and it seems to have helped quite a bit with the tears. Now I can see when I drive haha.

You are such a wonderful person. I read all your posts. You offer so much. The true value of sharing here is the understanding we have for each other's struggle. On our best days we offer support on our bad days we seek help. That's how it flows so well.

I hope you are feeling better now?

[Jeff1943]

It takes time, Jrick, you spent a long time getting this way, allow some time for recovery. It's not something you can turn off like tap or we'd all be in the plumbing business.

Just accept the symptoms, the bad feeling, with the minimum of second fear and it will go in its own good time. This is the key to recovery, Acceptance, Acceptance and more Acceptance until you no longer fear the symptoms and stop flooding your nervous system with fear hormone. You have the measure of it now, you do know how it works, you know anxiety has its limitations, you know that you must "Let time pass", the fourth imperative of Doctor Weekes.

[srj555]

I am new to this forum. I woke up one day a couple of months ago and felt a dark cloud hanging over me, and it hasn’t left. I’ve struggled with some depression and anxiety my entire life but I have not experienced anything like this feeling: the loneliness and the crying daily. I was looking for a support group where I could meet people and develop friendships who could emotionally encourage each other but it’s harder to find than I thought it would be. I stumbled into this forum and I want to thank all of you for your openness and truth, and thank you to the person who shared the Avril Levine song. I’m praying for this pain to be lifted from all of us.

[Jrick34 in reply to srj555]

Please forgive me for taking so long to acknowledge your reply but iam happy you found this forum and hope it helps you through your daily life. We are all in this together and if you ever need someone to talk to iam definitely here.

[srj555]

Thank you. Everyday is a struggle. Going to sleep and waking up are the worst times of the day. I can keep busy throughout the day with work but when all I have left is myself, it really is difficult.