Sleepless, nauseous, anxious, sick. Idk when to go home

[Against_the_current]

I haven't slept two nights. One night i was crying and had to go to the exam. After the exam i slept for like 2 hours and woke up vomited. Then fell asleep again around midnight and woke up 2 hours later. I tried to go to sleep but i couldn't. I'm suffering so much. I even felt feverish. I should go home if im sick but i don't want to infect mom and sis and they to become petty, or to deal with them sick. But this place is driving me insane. I wonder when to go home. Ofc dad wants me to go home. So he doesn't have to send me money and meds. I need to tell him if im going so he doesn't send. Sis and mom doesn't. I hate myself that i asked sis on Monday if she has something against me coming. If i hadn't asked, i would have gotten home yesterday or today. Thursday evening she has to do a group project and wants to be alone. I'm thinking of going on Thursday night. But mom said sis might come to my city on Saturday and i don't want to leave her alone and it would be a good excuse to go back home. I'm really weak. I need support. I'm all alone, family is toxic, ex hates me. I don't know what sis, mom and dad plan. The more i text and call, the more tangled it gets. Talking about tangled it's on the same app i talked to my ex and im always scared to open it. I finally ate and im scared to go asleep. I can't eat, I can't sleep. I talked to my therapist (again on this app) about visiting today at noon, it's morning rn. She hasn't replied and idk if i have a session or not. And id rather warm mom and dad earlier. If i ho, i can talk it with her but idk and im weak to go for nothing. I wanted to go to university to get a document that i passed master's degree but im not well and i don't want to go outside feeling so unwell. The thing is that place isn't made for staying in neither. Before eating i tried to sleep, played meditations and all but i couldn't. Really don't know what to do.

[SoporRose]

That's a lot through which to think. I hope your therapist comes through for you, that you get an appointment, and that she has advice that you can use. Let us know what you figure out.