My health

[Kiwilove23]

I am new to the group, so hi! I am 30 years old and I am working full time. I am a very strong person. I also have some health challenges that hit my way. About 2021 my brother passed away at the age of 20. And 2022 my best friend (grandma) passed away. I wasn't able to say my last good byes. So it's definitely hit me so hard. That I don't think I will ever be able to forgive myself for it. I then had a miscarriage 2 months ago. Which I ended up very sick and I was having a life threatening pregnancy. And I almost died from the pregnancy. I was traumatized from it.

[kenster1]

Hi Kiwilove23 welcome to you.

[Afterhours22]

HI, just want to say im very sorry for your losses. I don't know if I could have endured what u did and keep moving forward, so strong is an understatement. I hope you can find it in you to forgive yourself and know u deserve it. Because you do.

[Kiwilove23 in reply to Afterhours22]

Thank you for ur sweet comment. I do try my hardest everyday. And when I was going through all that I just kept pushing myself to keep working. And I just didn't have time to grief.

[012703060610]

Oh my, you have been through quite a bit! I can't imagine all of the emotions and thoughts spiraling in your mind. I have personally miscarried twice and it really does mess with your mind. I do have three beautiful kids, so never give up. I too struggle with PTSD. I literally can't be snuck up on or I freak out. You are in good company here. We are all struggling with something. Being strong will help you. If you aren't in therapy, I do highly suggest it. I'm 45 and have been in therapy since college. My family is unfortunate to have a lot of mental health struggles and therapy was free then. I then continued out of school because I found it really helpful even when things were "good" for some reason. I think it's the outside opinion. My husband has lots of advice, but that's not always enough or even accurate as he has never been depressed. Glad you joined!

[Cookie2217]

Hi Kiwilove. Welcome to the group. I hope you find people to identify with here. I had a miscarriage myself and then did IVF which didn't take and I was so heartbroken. I so wish I could have given my husband a child. You know what I'm saying?

[Teaching]

Welcome to the community!

[Stilltrying2]

Kiwilove23,

Welcome to the group. There are many caring and helpful people here. I hope you find a friend or two to help you on your journey.

[Hidden]

Hi Kiwilove,

I am so very sorry for your losses. Heartfelt condolences. You are indeed a very strong young woman. The fact that you can continue to push forward and work, speaks volumes for your inner strength. Allow forgiveness for yourself and also time to grieve. It all takes times. Welcome to this forum. You will find many caring and compassionate people here.