Today I had therapy at 11am. Totally forgot about it. I got distracted because I have ADHD. I managed to reschedule to 2pm. Scared me because the last time I missed an appointment they charged me 240$ for it. I almost went into a full blown emotional flashback and a depressive episode.
Therapy truly helps me. It's getting me to think about things differently. I can't miss an appointment. I fail to be on time for most things. I'm still extremely depressed by forgetting it. I can barely move.
best to get calendar and put up your appointment, I keep doing this for mum. She has so many hospital and dentist appointments!!
I had it on a calendar on my phone. It failed to alert me. It's almost like I try to alert myself to things like this, but I just completely forgot everything all the time. I'm even constantly late for work. The only reason I still have a job is because we get very good vacation PTO. We're so short staffed they have to work with us on that.
They should really remind you and text you again as reminder. I wonder if you ask them they might and they may take extra care because of ADHD if you tell them. Jobs are precious these days, I am always early because I really want to keep good look for myself and company.
I have family that struggles with this too; they're constantly anxious and find it difficult to navigate. They actually had to tell a health receptionist off and had a melt down explaining why it is literally almost impossible to get to ADHD treatment appointments on time... BECAUSE THEY HAVE ADHD. Once the receptionist clued in, they realized that most of their patients were in the exact same boat. The receptionist was incredibly and genuinely apologetic after that. All this to say that sometimes it isn't you, it's them. Sometimes you gotta wonder how in touch some health professionals actually are at times...
Totally agreed. They become their own egoverse. Because they got the degree and all the special achievements. That doesn't make anyone special. It's an ability to survive an I believe some people do it better than others. Living is having relationships, emotions, shared experience, friends, personality, and just being compassionate. I think college takes that away from so many people. They are so focused on success they either lose the ability to understand or just never had it at all just like me.
I was so absorbed in anger and hate. It practically became a passion. Complaining became my personality. Than I pretty much lost touch because I was under so much trauma and knock backs like COVID.
When I was doing appointments with my previous therapist he literally made comments and words that were so insensitive. It's probably my PTSD. But if you're a healthcare professional. Wouldn't you use gentler language. He would straight up say what I was saying about being late as an excuse about why I was late and that I need to stick this strick journalling and doing this "launchpad" technic. Literally made things worse for me. He as a therapist singlehandedly knocked me back in treatment. I blamed American healthcare as one example I didn't even attempt to help myself 3 years after that, forming silent hate in everything almost quite literally. If I perceived something I dislike all sorts of anger would be flowing through me. Honestly if therapist want to do their job. Than money should be barely involved. Why I despise American health insurance and healthcare. Money just creates a divide in anything social and were so darn use to it. So many people refuse to change in in complete obliviousness to the real problem. No one is naturally lazy. When someone is dysfunctional, they need help not shame or prison. World will never change generationally otherwise.
It took inner child work to realize how I can make myself a functional person to other people. Not society as whole because the outside world does nothing for us besides scare everyone.
Also therapy went well. You can probably tell from my rant. Healthcare as a topic is genuinely something that irritates me down to the soul because so many people quite literally deny the problem because they've never seen the full brunt of it. Especially in such desperation.
Glad you made it and it's helping you.
Day mostly turned around after. I even went to the gym after a short burnout.
First CBT/talking therapy appointment
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